akong bahala sayo
thats what she used to tell them. now she has gone and left us. i dint know her that well. i knew her as the lady who owned araneta coliseum, the tita of angela. tita chari. my dad was very fond of her. they were really close and when she was diagnosed with cancer my dad was sad. everyone was sad. she dint want any treatments. and even as her end came near she even threw a party and called her closest and favorite friends. she called it the going away party. She called her favorite priest and said when i leave father i want them to make me wear this, i want them to have these flowers there and i want them to have me hold a fork. why a fork? because she said when her friends would have a party and they would say hold on to your forks the best is yet to come! she knew there would be cake and she would keep her fork..when she dies she wants to hold a fork to say that the best has come and now she will ahve the best. She was always the life od the party and those taht came to the wake really loved her. Even if i wasnt close to her i found myself crying. then i realized that when you see how much loved that person was and how sad the others around you are, you cant help but also feel their pain. then i also relaized that feeling other people pain meant that i had feelings too of paina nd tht i was somehow connected to them and if i was connected to them and i feel them then i am alive. Tita Chari touched the lives of so many people and maybe when i go i want to stay for a while and see who would weep for me and to find out if i did touch anyones life at all. As morbid as it sounds i even know what song i want them to play, they played it there too while her family blessed her. Its a lovely song and it goes like this "its not how long weve held each others arms..what matters most is that we loved at all" and okay yeah sure i wasnt at all into the whole love thing taht time but it is true what matters most is that we have loved at all :) i dont want to go on living life feeling cheated and feelign like im missing something. i want to go on living and leaving a mark..a good one:)