i seem to be a drunk. wtf help
So i havent updated lately.(a real update anyway) Even though alot has actually went on.
Heres a brief update i guess..
Went out wed. and got trashed. Went to the bowling alley. Jeremiah came home so he went out with me. Everything was really wild. I ended up in the middle of no where and did the dirty in the boonies. im not exactly sure where we got it on. Brandy is convinced we did it in her car. Possible.. VERY POSSIBLE. but im not fessing up to anything. It was a great night including when i hit my friend Jason in the forehead with this "mag lite" flash light. It really hurt him. It was still funny.
Friday Jer came home. He was a big bore because all he wanted to do was sleep. But i got to see him which was nice.
I worked Saturday. Thats always hell. Jeremiah went to see his friend Akki. He came home this weekend from New york. I decided since he was being an asshole and didnt invite me to go too i was going to go to Lisa's. I stayed there while she permed her daughters hair. That was interesting. but it always gets better....
So i go home and brandy comes to get me. I got ready to party party party. Akki was having a party and those are usually legendary. No one was there when i got there. Jenu Money and Akki were going to the bar so me and brandy took our underage asses to the party on 9th street.(ends up they never even went to the bar) IT ended up being better than the indian party in the end. But i was drinking vodka and oj and jungle juice. I was FUUUUUUUUcked up. not so suprising anymore. Jacqui ended up showing up. Gag im sooo suprised i didnt say anything. OMG i didnt even hardly speak to her. I still wanna kick her in her face. But i did think it was funny when we came back from the other party she was like " I cant handle this. omg i cant handle all of these people. i can always get drunk at my apt." haha cant handle being with the big dogs biatch. not to mention she looked like a skank.
Everything was a blur. We kept switching parties. It was a blast.i guy i hate from work was all on me.. pushed him a way a ton. tony was our body guard. until he tried to go in the bathroom with me and brandy while we were singing "pull over that ass too fat" i slammed the door in his face. Jeremiah says i almost passed out at one time. He was so stoned it was unreal. oh well. he wasnt even with us half of the night.
it was good until i got home. He says jason called but he erased the message. but not chris's it pissed me off. Lots of words were flying. I dont know what was really said. or what was going on. all i know is he hit me in my jaw while i was on top of him. and he was telling me to get out of his space. i told him to give me a good reason. i wouldnt move and he threw me off the bed,not cool at all. he swears it was on accident. i dont remember. i was too drunk to really know. We started going at it. Making out and stuff. then all of the sudden we started in again after i said i felt used by him. omg its horrible that i hardly remember what we fought about. UNTIL.. I MADE HIM CRY!. He says that i kept screaming " prove to me that you love me . PROVE IT PROVE IT JEREMIAH PROVE IT". Then he put my hand on his face and i felt tears streaming on his face. I turned on the light to see if i was real. sure enough it was. i kissed his tears away. then we fought again. and he held me. i passed out.
i asked him,the next day " so you made yourself cry to prove to me that you love me?" his response was. " No i was crying before you just didnt know. I would never cry over someone unless i really loved them"
talk about feeling 2 inches tall.
its ok. we made up.
now lets just put it into jason head were always ONLY going to be FRIENDS.
boy
it scares me they say the truth comes out when your drunk.
i cant wait until wednesday.
im a bad person i feel it.
Heres a brief update i guess..
Went out wed. and got trashed. Went to the bowling alley. Jeremiah came home so he went out with me. Everything was really wild. I ended up in the middle of no where and did the dirty in the boonies. im not exactly sure where we got it on. Brandy is convinced we did it in her car. Possible.. VERY POSSIBLE. but im not fessing up to anything. It was a great night including when i hit my friend Jason in the forehead with this "mag lite" flash light. It really hurt him. It was still funny.
Friday Jer came home. He was a big bore because all he wanted to do was sleep. But i got to see him which was nice.
I worked Saturday. Thats always hell. Jeremiah went to see his friend Akki. He came home this weekend from New york. I decided since he was being an asshole and didnt invite me to go too i was going to go to Lisa's. I stayed there while she permed her daughters hair. That was interesting. but it always gets better....
So i go home and brandy comes to get me. I got ready to party party party. Akki was having a party and those are usually legendary. No one was there when i got there. Jenu Money and Akki were going to the bar so me and brandy took our underage asses to the party on 9th street.(ends up they never even went to the bar) IT ended up being better than the indian party in the end. But i was drinking vodka and oj and jungle juice. I was FUUUUUUUUcked up. not so suprising anymore. Jacqui ended up showing up. Gag im sooo suprised i didnt say anything. OMG i didnt even hardly speak to her. I still wanna kick her in her face. But i did think it was funny when we came back from the other party she was like " I cant handle this. omg i cant handle all of these people. i can always get drunk at my apt." haha cant handle being with the big dogs biatch. not to mention she looked like a skank.
Everything was a blur. We kept switching parties. It was a blast.i guy i hate from work was all on me.. pushed him a way a ton. tony was our body guard. until he tried to go in the bathroom with me and brandy while we were singing "pull over that ass too fat" i slammed the door in his face. Jeremiah says i almost passed out at one time. He was so stoned it was unreal. oh well. he wasnt even with us half of the night.
it was good until i got home. He says jason called but he erased the message. but not chris's it pissed me off. Lots of words were flying. I dont know what was really said. or what was going on. all i know is he hit me in my jaw while i was on top of him. and he was telling me to get out of his space. i told him to give me a good reason. i wouldnt move and he threw me off the bed,not cool at all. he swears it was on accident. i dont remember. i was too drunk to really know. We started going at it. Making out and stuff. then all of the sudden we started in again after i said i felt used by him. omg its horrible that i hardly remember what we fought about. UNTIL.. I MADE HIM CRY!. He says that i kept screaming " prove to me that you love me . PROVE IT PROVE IT JEREMIAH PROVE IT". Then he put my hand on his face and i felt tears streaming on his face. I turned on the light to see if i was real. sure enough it was. i kissed his tears away. then we fought again. and he held me. i passed out.
i asked him,the next day " so you made yourself cry to prove to me that you love me?" his response was. " No i was crying before you just didnt know. I would never cry over someone unless i really loved them"
talk about feeling 2 inches tall.
its ok. we made up.
now lets just put it into jason head were always ONLY going to be FRIENDS.
boy
it scares me they say the truth comes out when your drunk.
i cant wait until wednesday.
im a bad person i feel it.