SHE LEFT ME
so heather left yesterday for italy. i feel like she has been gone for like a week already. today jordin called me and said i had something in the mail from heather. she brought it to work for me, i love you jordin! monday night we went to diner one last time and we sat in the parking lot at bahama breeze and hugged and cried and hugged and laughed. she makes my heart hurt in a good way. everytime i see her poicture or hear her voice i get this weird feeling in my stomach and want to hug her so tight. she makes me feel like noone ever has. i was in a 7 year realtionship and never felt like this. i dont think there are words to describe my feelings. i wish she could call me. she said she had a calling card and would try to call me. god to hear her voice again. i know i act like i will never see her again or shes going to be gone for the summer but it feels like i cant live w/out her. obviously im doing it but goddam its weird. it will get easier and my friends are helping me out so its all good.
last night we went to red robin for jordins b-day. a big red bird came over and gave her a baloon. julie decided that she wanted to draw a mustache and beard on my face with a red crayon. of course i let her b/c what are friends for right! then laura ann too a big dump in the bathroom and stunk it up, P UUUUU. then we came home and started drinking.
i got e-mails from heather this morning. she was in the london airport. that made my day start off very well.