one of the weirdest experiences in Chico yet...
ok so Thanksgiving was cool, i got to visit with some good friends and ate a lot of food and visited with family and blah blah blah. ok, so now that's out of the way...
i just had one of the weirdest experiences here in Chico since i've been here.
so let's backtrack a bit...
for some really odd reason, i found myself in a bit of an empty state on Sunday, after church, which usually never happens. i really haven't felt this bad since the time where i got out of my depression during the summer of my senior year.
i prayed that night that i would find out exactly what was wrong with me and fix it before it got worse, i tried making myself cry, hoping that whatever negative energy was in me would be washed out by my tears, but nothing happened. i tried reading my Bible, looking for any verse that could provide me with encouragement, but nothing came up. i felt totally and completely helpless.
so today, i skipped out on my Spanish class because i was in such a "i dont give a fuck" mood, and i wandered around downtown, and decided that i was going to buy myself a new Bible so that i could make markings in it and study it better and that would provide me with at least more encouragement than what i was getting. it was pouring rain, i was freezing my ass off, and i didn't have a rainhood on, so i was completely drenched. i looked at all of the bookstores near the campus that i could find, and didn't find a single one that i wanted. so i began the long walk back, my facial expression spelt "desperate" all over it, and my hair was dripping wet, when this interesting looking man walks by me and mutters something to me as i pass by him.
now usually i just go about my business and pay those people no mind... but this certain guy was intriguing for some odd reason. i mean.... this guy was only a little taller than me, he had this like.... cloak on him and this turban-like american flag cloth thing was wrapped around his head....
so i turned back to him and was like, "WHAT?"
and he went into this whole prophetic speech about how the nazi's and satan are going to try to control me and how they will be the ones fighting in the battle between heaven and earth and how they are going to try and turn me into the very beast inside myself.
!"say no to that!" he said, "say automatically that 'i want to live in the presence of God!'."
and i said to him as a way of rebuking the bullshit he was spewing at me "I already have God on my side, thank you."
and he looks at me and says "Yes, I am." and walks away...
....WTF???....... this joker just like outwardly proclaimed that he was God! hahaha!
i couldn't help it, i was like at lost for words because i've never ran into someone like that, and i didnt know what to say... so i laughed! and i mean really laughed. i walked down the street laughing my ass off because of what just happened and because i didnt know what else to do, and people were walkingg by me thinking that i was insane but i just couldnt help myself!
well, crock or not, that guy was pretty much exactly what i needed to bring me out of that empty state. and it reassured me that God is on my side, something i guess i may have forgotten for a short period of time.
God sure has a weird sense of humor!
-me
i just had one of the weirdest experiences here in Chico since i've been here.
so let's backtrack a bit...
for some really odd reason, i found myself in a bit of an empty state on Sunday, after church, which usually never happens. i really haven't felt this bad since the time where i got out of my depression during the summer of my senior year.
i prayed that night that i would find out exactly what was wrong with me and fix it before it got worse, i tried making myself cry, hoping that whatever negative energy was in me would be washed out by my tears, but nothing happened. i tried reading my Bible, looking for any verse that could provide me with encouragement, but nothing came up. i felt totally and completely helpless.
so today, i skipped out on my Spanish class because i was in such a "i dont give a fuck" mood, and i wandered around downtown, and decided that i was going to buy myself a new Bible so that i could make markings in it and study it better and that would provide me with at least more encouragement than what i was getting. it was pouring rain, i was freezing my ass off, and i didn't have a rainhood on, so i was completely drenched. i looked at all of the bookstores near the campus that i could find, and didn't find a single one that i wanted. so i began the long walk back, my facial expression spelt "desperate" all over it, and my hair was dripping wet, when this interesting looking man walks by me and mutters something to me as i pass by him.
now usually i just go about my business and pay those people no mind... but this certain guy was intriguing for some odd reason. i mean.... this guy was only a little taller than me, he had this like.... cloak on him and this turban-like american flag cloth thing was wrapped around his head....
so i turned back to him and was like, "WHAT?"
and he went into this whole prophetic speech about how the nazi's and satan are going to try to control me and how they will be the ones fighting in the battle between heaven and earth and how they are going to try and turn me into the very beast inside myself.
!"say no to that!" he said, "say automatically that 'i want to live in the presence of God!'."
and i said to him as a way of rebuking the bullshit he was spewing at me "I already have God on my side, thank you."
and he looks at me and says "Yes, I am." and walks away...
....WTF???....... this joker just like outwardly proclaimed that he was God! hahaha!
i couldn't help it, i was like at lost for words because i've never ran into someone like that, and i didnt know what to say... so i laughed! and i mean really laughed. i walked down the street laughing my ass off because of what just happened and because i didnt know what else to do, and people were walkingg by me thinking that i was insane but i just couldnt help myself!
well, crock or not, that guy was pretty much exactly what i needed to bring me out of that empty state. and it reassured me that God is on my side, something i guess i may have forgotten for a short period of time.
God sure has a weird sense of humor!
-me