Blimey,I have finally had time to catch up lol
The last few days have been chaotic. I will just recap, coz I am bound to miss out parts of the last few days, lol - Nick & I have found a place we would absolutely love to live in! it has a big lounge, with an open plan kitchen - along with a hallway, that on one side leads to the bathroom, and then a double bedroom across the other. Needless to say, we think this would be just perfect for a starter-home! so we are waiting to hear back from the estate agent today - after they have spoken to the seller. Hopefully, they will accept our offer, but I know these things take time, so I am really trying hard to be patient!! Work has been manic lately, lots of people for me to train before I leave, and I am going to miss everyone so much!! its hard to believe after 7 years, I am actually going to be leaving that place. Well still within the company, but away from such dear friends of mine that I have known over so many years. I am still looking after my grandparents everyday, and they are coming along a little - they amaze me by the day with their strength. Many friends have been concerned that I am not giving enough time to myself, but having them as part of my day, is a very important responsibility for me -
and one with which I am glad to have, it also means that my Dad never has the worry of it. Dad has planned a trip away to stay with some friends & family, which I am really pleased about, as this will be very good for him. He is also going to meet Nick & I in Birmingham, when we go and stay with Andy in the next few weeks. Yay! for yearly memorabilia show, it has come to that time again! and I am really looking forward to that. Andy, I love you more than words will ever say - and I know mum did too. xxx
I am off work today, woohoo!! and have been sorting out stuff for my new job - which I will be starting in April :-) I also got my annual bonus from work too, a nice meaty grand! oh what will I do with you?! lol - I know..use it for what I had already decided a few months back - my honeymoon spending money, bridesmaid dress & accesories and appliances for my new home. If there is a little left over, then I have seen the purrfect! black leather bag for my new job & a lush tie for me bro, as he has just been given a promotion too!!
Rach & Mike came over the other night, which was cool. Mike brought his Gibson electric guitar over, to jam with dad. man, they sounded hot!! and it was so good to see dad really enjoying himself. He is so talented, and when he has this break away, he shall be playing a gig up north too.Easter soon, which means James will be home :-) and it will be so good to see him. I am going to spend Good Friday with him & dad, just gotta decide what to do - nothing better than spending quality time with your family, or more important for that matter. I feel my mum guiding me day by day, and it is her love that carries me on. I feel so comforted, by her unconditional love and support through every chapter that unfolds in my life - she is with me everyday.
I am helping my friend Paul through the loss of his mum at the moment, especially with help on legal matters - and in doing this, our pain shared is making us stronger. I did not think it would be possible to be any stronger, but I surprise myself daily, with the immense strength that I find myself having. I guess this is because, with tragedy comes sadness, and as life goes on - you pick yourself up along with those who you love. God bless my mum who has taught me, that in life, you keep battling for those things that you want - because without believing in youself and going for everything your heart desires, nothing will come to you. Life is full of complications and uncontrolable activity, and the ability to do what your heart tells you, is the greatest gift of all. You may sometimes rule with your head, but I have always had a tendency to let my heart show me the way, and I stand proud by this.
Many of my friends have been scared at the thought that this loss with which I am suffering, will change me - but let me assure you all that I am stronger now, than I have ever been in my whole life. We are but moulds from our experiences, and I would never give up on a life full of the most loving family, along with an amazing circle of friends, as for that - I have been blessed. I may feel as if I dont want to wake up, or even fill my days sometimes, but I know the importance of life, and the good that you may have in it, if you embrace it in every way you can - and it is this, that makes me fufill it daily. I am getting married in just 6 months, and I know that this is going to be just the very start, of a wonderful life. I want to let all my friends know, that every single one of you, Nick & my family - is all I'll ever need.
Anything else that life may have in store for me, will be an added bonus. I have learnt not to expect anything from this life, and that whatever happens, shall be marked with a new beginning. I may be hurting on the inside, but that will never stop me loving each and every one of you throughout anything you may need, at anytime. Please never forget that when I say I love you all dearly, that a piece of my heart has been given to every single one of you.
*holds all who are dear to her close*
xxx
and one with which I am glad to have, it also means that my Dad never has the worry of it. Dad has planned a trip away to stay with some friends & family, which I am really pleased about, as this will be very good for him. He is also going to meet Nick & I in Birmingham, when we go and stay with Andy in the next few weeks. Yay! for yearly memorabilia show, it has come to that time again! and I am really looking forward to that. Andy, I love you more than words will ever say - and I know mum did too. xxx
I am off work today, woohoo!! and have been sorting out stuff for my new job - which I will be starting in April :-) I also got my annual bonus from work too, a nice meaty grand! oh what will I do with you?! lol - I know..use it for what I had already decided a few months back - my honeymoon spending money, bridesmaid dress & accesories and appliances for my new home. If there is a little left over, then I have seen the purrfect! black leather bag for my new job & a lush tie for me bro, as he has just been given a promotion too!!
Rach & Mike came over the other night, which was cool. Mike brought his Gibson electric guitar over, to jam with dad. man, they sounded hot!! and it was so good to see dad really enjoying himself. He is so talented, and when he has this break away, he shall be playing a gig up north too.Easter soon, which means James will be home :-) and it will be so good to see him. I am going to spend Good Friday with him & dad, just gotta decide what to do - nothing better than spending quality time with your family, or more important for that matter. I feel my mum guiding me day by day, and it is her love that carries me on. I feel so comforted, by her unconditional love and support through every chapter that unfolds in my life - she is with me everyday.
I am helping my friend Paul through the loss of his mum at the moment, especially with help on legal matters - and in doing this, our pain shared is making us stronger. I did not think it would be possible to be any stronger, but I surprise myself daily, with the immense strength that I find myself having. I guess this is because, with tragedy comes sadness, and as life goes on - you pick yourself up along with those who you love. God bless my mum who has taught me, that in life, you keep battling for those things that you want - because without believing in youself and going for everything your heart desires, nothing will come to you. Life is full of complications and uncontrolable activity, and the ability to do what your heart tells you, is the greatest gift of all. You may sometimes rule with your head, but I have always had a tendency to let my heart show me the way, and I stand proud by this.
Many of my friends have been scared at the thought that this loss with which I am suffering, will change me - but let me assure you all that I am stronger now, than I have ever been in my whole life. We are but moulds from our experiences, and I would never give up on a life full of the most loving family, along with an amazing circle of friends, as for that - I have been blessed. I may feel as if I dont want to wake up, or even fill my days sometimes, but I know the importance of life, and the good that you may have in it, if you embrace it in every way you can - and it is this, that makes me fufill it daily. I am getting married in just 6 months, and I know that this is going to be just the very start, of a wonderful life. I want to let all my friends know, that every single one of you, Nick & my family - is all I'll ever need.
Anything else that life may have in store for me, will be an added bonus. I have learnt not to expect anything from this life, and that whatever happens, shall be marked with a new beginning. I may be hurting on the inside, but that will never stop me loving each and every one of you throughout anything you may need, at anytime. Please never forget that when I say I love you all dearly, that a piece of my heart has been given to every single one of you.
*holds all who are dear to her close*
xxx