blech
So...honestly...lots of stuff has been going on. Continuous fights with Aaron, with my dad, with other people over a variety of topics. Something happened last night and I don't want to talk about it as it's not my place, but Aaron needs me right now and I'm going to be there for him, regardless what anyone thinks or says. He needs someone to just be there to listen and I will do that. I care about him and he needs to know that. I need to find a way to show him more and more how much I care and what I'm working on will probably at least show him somewhat...was going to be a xmas gift, but I think I'll give it to him before then. He might be moving to Arizona for a full-time fighting position. That gets to me...I mean, duh, of course it gets to me...that's hundreds of miles away! But I know it's to better himself, I know it's what he truly wants to do with his life and I fully support him. I'm just going to miss him and I don't know what the next few months hold in store for me and I want to go down there for Christmas if I'm able, but I don't know what's going to happen. And I know majority of my family will be pissed if I miss xmas celebrations and I don't want them mad at me but quite honestly, I should be able to go be with him down in AZ if I want to for the holidays. I don't know what's going on right now. I'm just really out of it...and I'm really emotional over a lot of stuff. I don't really want to go in depth coz honestly I don't really know and I don't feel like rambling on about how I can't figure it out. I start fire academy come Oct. and I'm kinda looking forward to that...so we'll see what happens...