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Gah life is boring. I don't like it. I never have anything to do. I have maybe 6 friends. 3 or 4 of whom I see a lot. And I never hang out with any of them but Dave. I guess I am just too much of a bitch to have friends. Now people can complain and say I am being childish or whiney but I dont care. I am really incredibly lonely. I miss having people to talk to. I miss staying the night at Sarah's house, staying up late and talking and just having fun. I haven't even hung out with my supposed to be best friend in almost 3 months. I am so confused. I dont know what to do anymore. I dont know who I can trust. I wish I had friends I wish I had a life. I wish I was skinny. I wish I was pretty. I wish I was anyone but me. And I wish I was anything but what I am.