Guess it's been a while huh?

[cuddles]

Hello journal. They tell me I've changed. Adam says I've matured. Mom says I've lost my anger. They say I'm a better man now. Maybe, maybe I am a better man. Maybe I'm a little more mature(though I'm not wearing pants right now.) But I sure as Hell haven't lost the anger. I grew up a child of addiction. I grew up a child of violence and pain and hurt and most of all RAGE. When I was a kid I use to get so pissed I'd forget to breath and pass out. That should have been a warning sign then. A sign that the rage was here to stay. There's never been a second of my life when I couldn't feel it's warmth. Truth be told I wouldn't know what to do without that heat. See Rage is like a fire. Incredibly dangerous if you can't control it, but the giver of so many blessings when you can. I've been burned by my rage so many times. I've lost good women, friends, family, and jobs from my rage. But it's also kept me alive in the cold cold darkness that is my mind. My rage has fueled my battle against the evil of this world. Rage has forged me into the man I am today, this better man.

No I didn't lose the rage. I know just where it is.

Later

Cuddles