Wow it's so weird...... yet so wonderful

[cuddlebunzy]

Yeah, I really do like him...... wait, correction, I love him. I swear I've never felt this way before. He affects me in ways I cannot describe. Cannot control. I never let myself feel so strongly for someone.... and now look what's happening to me! But this is a good thing, right? A good friend of mine told me once that when you're truly in love, it happens on it's own, without you making or letting it happen. I dunno if they're right, but I sure think so right now. I mean c'mon, I've begun to act so weird lately. Like, when he's hangin at my apartment, I'll constantly stare at him when he's not aware of it...... well not really stare, more like strongly observe. See, something I love to do, and do very well frankly, is read people. I read their facial expressions, their movements, everything they do, I watch it. It's like a hobby of mine, watching and studying people from the inside out. Vicky, my best friend in the entire world, has told me, after knowing me for little over a month, that I read her better than anyone else. Wow..... I take that as a biiiig compliment. But see, I'll stare at Carlos constantly, watching his face, which by the way is often very expressive. One thing I love about him is that it's so fun to watch his face, the way his eyebrows rise and fall, the way his brow furrows, the way his lips move, the way his hair falls around his face, framing him beautifully. I swear, he is intoxicating! And this is why it scares me. I've only not seen him since this morning, and already I miss him. I miss his embrace, his gentle touch, his sweet words. He likes to say I smell like wildflowers. No one's ever told me that before. Interesting. He is an addiction. "To me you're like a growing addiction that I can't deny. Won't tell me is it healthy baby?"

Is he the one? Who knows.....