1 week to go.
Clearly, Life has gotten the best of me.
In one week, I'll be The Bride. And I'll be marrying the man that I've been dating for 10+ sweet years. Sometimes, I still can't believe it's actually happening. How could I be old enough to be getting married? As a little girl, who ever really believes it will happen to them? It seems so distant and unattainable... "maybe someday..." My someday is almost here.
So, what am I feeling?
Nervous. No, not because I'm getting married, but for The Event itself! There's so much planning that goes into this day it's insane. So many decisions, so many details. I know things won't be perfect and I'm actually okay with that. I just hope everyone has a good time. I could got married in the snow, with my man and an officiant, and I'd be perfectly happy. Everything else is cake.
Excited. We've been working so long and hard! We've come up with some wonderful details that are so truly "us". And I'm so excited for everyone to finally see them!
Hopeful. The 10-day forecast is varying quite a bit right now... We may not get to have the outdoor ceremony that I've been hoping for. And that's okay. I just hope that the weather isn't bad enough to not allow for some outdoor shots. I want to prance around in the fallen leaves, thankyouverymuch. But if that doesn't happen, by the end of the day, I'll still be married. :)
Honest. Okay, with some of these statements I am trying to convince myself. I am trying to convince myself that it's okay if the ceremony is indoors and not in the pretty, pretty garden. It really is... but I'll still be a touch disappointed. Is that okay?
Irrational. I'm also trying to convince myself that dealing with 3 sets of parents will not spoil my day in any way. Oy. That's a lot of people to keep happy. We've been trying. Sometimes, we have failed. But I hope not to on that day. They wouldn't hold a grudge against me for something that happens on that day, right?!
Defeated. There is no possible way to keep everyone happy! Maybe the flower colors clash with someone's dress. Or we didn't pick the reading that someone else wanted. Or, where's the champagne toast, damnit?! (there isn't one!, ha!)
Focused. But the 2 people that matter the most, will be ecstatic. And that should rub off on people. I am getting married. And that's all that matters. The rest will just be one heck of a party. :) Strangely enough, while there are still a lot of little things to be done, I feel calmer today than I did last week. I'm sure that will change. For now, I'll just enjoy the ride.
In one week, I'll be The Bride. And I'll be marrying the man that I've been dating for 10+ sweet years. Sometimes, I still can't believe it's actually happening. How could I be old enough to be getting married? As a little girl, who ever really believes it will happen to them? It seems so distant and unattainable... "maybe someday..." My someday is almost here.
So, what am I feeling?
Nervous. No, not because I'm getting married, but for The Event itself! There's so much planning that goes into this day it's insane. So many decisions, so many details. I know things won't be perfect and I'm actually okay with that. I just hope everyone has a good time. I could got married in the snow, with my man and an officiant, and I'd be perfectly happy. Everything else is cake.
Excited. We've been working so long and hard! We've come up with some wonderful details that are so truly "us". And I'm so excited for everyone to finally see them!
Hopeful. The 10-day forecast is varying quite a bit right now... We may not get to have the outdoor ceremony that I've been hoping for. And that's okay. I just hope that the weather isn't bad enough to not allow for some outdoor shots. I want to prance around in the fallen leaves, thankyouverymuch. But if that doesn't happen, by the end of the day, I'll still be married. :)
Honest. Okay, with some of these statements I am trying to convince myself. I am trying to convince myself that it's okay if the ceremony is indoors and not in the pretty, pretty garden. It really is... but I'll still be a touch disappointed. Is that okay?
Irrational. I'm also trying to convince myself that dealing with 3 sets of parents will not spoil my day in any way. Oy. That's a lot of people to keep happy. We've been trying. Sometimes, we have failed. But I hope not to on that day. They wouldn't hold a grudge against me for something that happens on that day, right?!
Defeated. There is no possible way to keep everyone happy! Maybe the flower colors clash with someone's dress. Or we didn't pick the reading that someone else wanted. Or, where's the champagne toast, damnit?! (there isn't one!, ha!)
Focused. But the 2 people that matter the most, will be ecstatic. And that should rub off on people. I am getting married. And that's all that matters. The rest will just be one heck of a party. :) Strangely enough, while there are still a lot of little things to be done, I feel calmer today than I did last week. I'm sure that will change. For now, I'll just enjoy the ride.