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I had a great time with Justin, it was an amazing day and the first good day I've had in a long time. But as the clocks turn over the new day I'm left alone with thoughts from endless nights before and the lingering quotes from Josh Caps, "The fall is so much quicker than the rise" and "we all know I can't be alone; my demons would as sure destroy you as they would me", two phrases that relate to my current mood and I am thankful for hearing; it makes realize that other people have had feelings as I do now. I once again ate a good meal with doubts of being able to keep it down. I've lost 25 pounds in the last few weeks, it would seem at though i was suffering from Anorexia but that not the case seeing that I looked fucked up before I gained weight and losing would make no difference anyway.
The shows tomorrow with bands I don't like, Our False Heroes have to songs I like but they're the only ones that are actually good. Hopefully this could be a much needed release for me and maybe I won' feel as fucked up afterwards and maybe I'll be tired enough to sleep.
The shows tomorrow with bands I don't like, Our False Heroes have to songs I like but they're the only ones that are actually good. Hopefully this could be a much needed release for me and maybe I won' feel as fucked up afterwards and maybe I'll be tired enough to sleep.