i'm having a party...
a pity party. no one's invited but myself. i would say it's pms, but it seems a little soon for that. i saw he added some girl as a friend on facebook. two girls, actually. one of which i'm pretty sure is his other ex-gf that all i know about is her name and that they dated for 4 months. the only thing that keeps me from totally flipping out is the fact that both their profile pictures are accompanied by a male whom I can only hope is their current boyfriend they love very much and wouldn't imagine leaving. my crying has kind of tapered off into 1-2 times a day, mostly at night when i'm trying to fall asleep, but has increased the past few days again. i should keep a graph.
i wonder what it will be like when we're both back in the same city. will he want to hang out? will he want to talk about things? or is he already comfortable with the way we left it? i bet he doesn't even think about it anymore. clear conscience, free as a bird. we're just friends, same old same old. it was just a failed experiment. get over it steph, he has. or maybe he never felt strongly enough to feel he had to get over anything.
i've been going to the gym and using the crosstrainer for 20-40 minutes and then the treadmill for 20-40 minutes. but the past couple of weeks my right knee pops and kind of hurts everytime i take a step on the crosstrainer. so i should probably discontinue use...but it says i burn so many calories and it's really not hard to do. that counter thing must be wrong. anyway, so i've been running more and getting better at that, but now my right foot hurts. fuck you foot. well, time for bed. this party aint gonna stop til the break of dawn.
i wonder what it will be like when we're both back in the same city. will he want to hang out? will he want to talk about things? or is he already comfortable with the way we left it? i bet he doesn't even think about it anymore. clear conscience, free as a bird. we're just friends, same old same old. it was just a failed experiment. get over it steph, he has. or maybe he never felt strongly enough to feel he had to get over anything.
i've been going to the gym and using the crosstrainer for 20-40 minutes and then the treadmill for 20-40 minutes. but the past couple of weeks my right knee pops and kind of hurts everytime i take a step on the crosstrainer. so i should probably discontinue use...but it says i burn so many calories and it's really not hard to do. that counter thing must be wrong. anyway, so i've been running more and getting better at that, but now my right foot hurts. fuck you foot. well, time for bed. this party aint gonna stop til the break of dawn.