updates
October 20 (Friday)
mom and dad went to The Galleria, and first time kong di sumama, kasi basta shopping I've always been there. Ba't di ako sumama? kasi TASP exam ko na the next day. And sa sobrang pressure pa sobrang I was screaming my heart out tapos, haha umiyak ako konti lang. Kasi nalaman ko na yung midterms ko pala for my Stat class was scheduled at 8am-12pm the same day of my TASP exam so sobrang gusto kong mag-break down. Ewan basta it's like my "release." I cry when I'm super mad tapos I can't let it out, and I also cry when I'm under so much pressure. so yun.
Tapos, due to so much pressure, adrenaline, and me being so fucking nervous, di ako nakatulog, kasi I was really just laying down from 10 pm to 12:30 am, talagang ikot ako ng ikot sa kama. Tapos yun finally nakatulog ako pero...
October 21 (Saturday)
2:19am nagising ako, and was never able to go back to sleep, not a fucking wink. For 2 and a half hours ikot lang ako ng ikot sa kama, lahat ng techniques na gumagana naman on normal days na pampatulog, ginawa ko na pero ayaw pa rin, so finally nung 4am na tumayo na ko ang nanood ng TV, hinintay ko na lang magising si mom and dad para sumabay pumasok, swear, yung ulo ko parang may helium, hilong-hilo ako na I did jacks, I jogged in place para I can gain some "sense" sa katawan ko kasi super numb siya, I even bathe using, at-the-edge-of-being-warm-close-to-being-hot water.
I ate my breakfast at The Methodist Hospital, pero parang nasusuka ko after each and every bite, pero on normal days, sobrang gusto ko yung food sa methodist.
The exam was 5 hours from 9am-2pm no food nor water allowed, you can chew gum, which I did but turns out to be a not so good idea kasi lalo lang akong nagutom.
siguro this year has got to be the worst and best birthday ever. Worst kasi TASP + no sleep + STAT class trouble. The best kasi finally tapos na yung TASP.
October 22 (Sunday)
slept aroung 4 am kasi nag-review pa ko for my Stat class exam, which by the way was useless.
October 23 (Monday)
Ayun pasko na, ang lamig sobra kahapon.
Tapos sobrang, I felt the result of my sleeping habits for the past few months, tapos kahapon I wasn't able to eat lunch, tapos I as reviewing inside the car so yun sobrang nahilo ako, na my aunt, whom we picked up at Memorial Hermann, panicked when she saw me tapos namumutla daw. Ayun, I wasn't able to review kasi sobrang ang sama ng pakiramdam ko.
Took my Stat exam, and failed miserably. Well, siguro yung webct part ng exam I failed, pero the scantron part okay naman 10 mistakes out of 50, ok na yun.
So ayun after a loooong day. Ang kinain ko lang for dinner was vietnamese noodle soup sa may Thien-something kasama si kuya.
Then tumawag si G.anne nood daw kami ng movie, The Grudge and Prestige.
I'll save the review for later post.
mom and dad went to The Galleria, and first time kong di sumama, kasi basta shopping I've always been there. Ba't di ako sumama? kasi TASP exam ko na the next day. And sa sobrang pressure pa sobrang I was screaming my heart out tapos, haha umiyak ako konti lang. Kasi nalaman ko na yung midterms ko pala for my Stat class was scheduled at 8am-12pm the same day of my TASP exam so sobrang gusto kong mag-break down. Ewan basta it's like my "release." I cry when I'm super mad tapos I can't let it out, and I also cry when I'm under so much pressure. so yun.
Tapos, due to so much pressure, adrenaline, and me being so fucking nervous, di ako nakatulog, kasi I was really just laying down from 10 pm to 12:30 am, talagang ikot ako ng ikot sa kama. Tapos yun finally nakatulog ako pero...
October 21 (Saturday)
2:19am nagising ako, and was never able to go back to sleep, not a fucking wink. For 2 and a half hours ikot lang ako ng ikot sa kama, lahat ng techniques na gumagana naman on normal days na pampatulog, ginawa ko na pero ayaw pa rin, so finally nung 4am na tumayo na ko ang nanood ng TV, hinintay ko na lang magising si mom and dad para sumabay pumasok, swear, yung ulo ko parang may helium, hilong-hilo ako na I did jacks, I jogged in place para I can gain some "sense" sa katawan ko kasi super numb siya, I even bathe using, at-the-edge-of-being-warm-close-to-being-hot water.
I ate my breakfast at The Methodist Hospital, pero parang nasusuka ko after each and every bite, pero on normal days, sobrang gusto ko yung food sa methodist.
The exam was 5 hours from 9am-2pm no food nor water allowed, you can chew gum, which I did but turns out to be a not so good idea kasi lalo lang akong nagutom.
siguro this year has got to be the worst and best birthday ever. Worst kasi TASP + no sleep + STAT class trouble. The best kasi finally tapos na yung TASP.
October 22 (Sunday)
slept aroung 4 am kasi nag-review pa ko for my Stat class exam, which by the way was useless.
October 23 (Monday)
Ayun pasko na, ang lamig sobra kahapon.
Tapos sobrang, I felt the result of my sleeping habits for the past few months, tapos kahapon I wasn't able to eat lunch, tapos I as reviewing inside the car so yun sobrang nahilo ako, na my aunt, whom we picked up at Memorial Hermann, panicked when she saw me tapos namumutla daw. Ayun, I wasn't able to review kasi sobrang ang sama ng pakiramdam ko.
Took my Stat exam, and failed miserably. Well, siguro yung webct part ng exam I failed, pero the scantron part okay naman 10 mistakes out of 50, ok na yun.
So ayun after a loooong day. Ang kinain ko lang for dinner was vietnamese noodle soup sa may Thien-something kasama si kuya.
Then tumawag si G.anne nood daw kami ng movie, The Grudge and Prestige.
I'll save the review for later post.