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okay so not to be a damper on the whole christmas spirit or anything but wow, i dont see my family anymore at all.
reasons for this consist of the following:
Dad:
he doesnt work at saturn anymore, but he has a new job with a limo company so he's on the road from like 12pm-12am everyday accept wednesday. and wednesday's are the days that i work 3-9 at vitalife. so i dont see him till around 9 and when i get home im tired, usually shower, do homework, other things that i have to get done. he used to drive me to school in the mornings, but now that i basically have my own car, he rarely does. so i cant remember the last time i spent more then an hour of time with him.
Mom:
my mom still works at the doctors office. her schedule goes like this monday: 10-10 tuesday 10-6 wednesday 2-10 thursday 2-6 friday 2-6. usually tuesday and thursday nights we have dinner together, whether we stay home or eat out. sometimes fridays too. but after that i have stuff to do, and so does she so we dont see each other at all really, or spend time together.
Abby:
at college, but when she's home she's either with kevin, pissed about something, or with her friends. this doesnt leave much time for her and me to bond, and when we do, something goes wrong. or we get pissed at each other.
Jess:
is at school too, but when she's home i usually have school or work or something to do, or she goes out, or does something that doesnt involve me.
i basically feel that now my life is like college. with the acception of a few occurances. I do my own laundry, find food for myself, pay for everything that i own accept my phone bill, electric bill and that stuff, i drive myself places, i work. i do everything. sociologically i am right at the tippy top of entering into the adult world, but i dont want to.i want to save my adolensence but i cant. i feel like i cant talk to my parents, because in all honesty, what are they going to do about it? They cant quit their jobs, and i can't quit school. like i dont even know what to do. as corny as this sounds, i feel more alone and independent then i ever have before, and even though theyre in their own rooms right next to mine, i really miss my family.
reasons for this consist of the following:
Dad:
he doesnt work at saturn anymore, but he has a new job with a limo company so he's on the road from like 12pm-12am everyday accept wednesday. and wednesday's are the days that i work 3-9 at vitalife. so i dont see him till around 9 and when i get home im tired, usually shower, do homework, other things that i have to get done. he used to drive me to school in the mornings, but now that i basically have my own car, he rarely does. so i cant remember the last time i spent more then an hour of time with him.
Mom:
my mom still works at the doctors office. her schedule goes like this monday: 10-10 tuesday 10-6 wednesday 2-10 thursday 2-6 friday 2-6. usually tuesday and thursday nights we have dinner together, whether we stay home or eat out. sometimes fridays too. but after that i have stuff to do, and so does she so we dont see each other at all really, or spend time together.
Abby:
at college, but when she's home she's either with kevin, pissed about something, or with her friends. this doesnt leave much time for her and me to bond, and when we do, something goes wrong. or we get pissed at each other.
Jess:
is at school too, but when she's home i usually have school or work or something to do, or she goes out, or does something that doesnt involve me.
i basically feel that now my life is like college. with the acception of a few occurances. I do my own laundry, find food for myself, pay for everything that i own accept my phone bill, electric bill and that stuff, i drive myself places, i work. i do everything. sociologically i am right at the tippy top of entering into the adult world, but i dont want to.i want to save my adolensence but i cant. i feel like i cant talk to my parents, because in all honesty, what are they going to do about it? They cant quit their jobs, and i can't quit school. like i dont even know what to do. as corny as this sounds, i feel more alone and independent then i ever have before, and even though theyre in their own rooms right next to mine, i really miss my family.