Senior Year
Sometimes I can't find the importance in senior year. Maybe its the apathy I have fallen into, or the dread of leaving. Life is short, I understand that concept now. I regret all the things I never did. I regret the things I will never do. Should I just go out and enjoy the little that is left, or should i say fuck it and stay the way I am? I need a change, a big change. One of those spur of the moment, gut wrenching, changes.
This apathy is gonna kill me, I'm lost in this world of jealousy, anger, regret, sorrow, loneliness, and fear. I think my fears have finally paralyzed me. Its a sad state. whenever this change comes it better be big, or it might not change anything at all. One of my friends once told me that I just have to remember in the back of my head that I'm good at something, I have worth, and many people would kill for it. Yet I find myself in a world where if someone killed me for the worth I have, they would be disapointed.
Sometimes I ramble to much. Actually I always ramble to much. I'll say one last thing though.
I have tried my hardest to be happy, yet the happiness never stays for long.
This apathy is gonna kill me, I'm lost in this world of jealousy, anger, regret, sorrow, loneliness, and fear. I think my fears have finally paralyzed me. Its a sad state. whenever this change comes it better be big, or it might not change anything at all. One of my friends once told me that I just have to remember in the back of my head that I'm good at something, I have worth, and many people would kill for it. Yet I find myself in a world where if someone killed me for the worth I have, they would be disapointed.
Sometimes I ramble to much. Actually I always ramble to much. I'll say one last thing though.
I have tried my hardest to be happy, yet the happiness never stays for long.