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[cubanheat87]

have you ever had that feeling were ur life is a mess up and ur pretty much are messing up the lives of everyone who you care about. I just cant help but feel that i did something wrong and it bugs me that i dunno. i guess im just confused. i feel like the closest people to me are afraid to tell me what i did or what i need to hear because i might shed a tear or i might do something crazy like punch a wall. i hate this feeling. its hurts were it counts. i really wish i can fix things instead of make them worse. but i cant do it. i just dont know how to improve on things. i kno how to deprove on a lot, i kno how to ruin things also. have you ever been hung up on right in the middle of saying i love you and sweet dreams. i did. wow. im not gonna lie, it sux. i just feel like i did something wrong again and i dunno what it was. i swear i would try to fix it. this feeling sucks. i guess i dont like knowing what is wrong. i guess i did something that i wasnt supposed to do. this doesnt change the fact that the people that i hold dearly to my heart i still love you guys, but if the truth hurts please let me know, that would be great thanks. i kno im not perfect, shit im about 1,000,000,000 miles away from it. i kno that i need work, just help me i want to change, not just for the people i care for, but mostly i wanna change for me. ive always been told i would be a better person if i just change something. im working on them i promise. but on the good note, i went bowing thats about it...
vinny
p.s. i love jessika leigh cutwright with my whole heart