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STOP MAKING PROMISES YOU KNOW YOU CANT KEEP. "Nothing will change. I Promise"....thats what you said. lie. lie. I lie. and IM so so sorry for being such a stupid emotional...liar?
theres the way things are and then the way i want things to be.
not should.
just the way i want. but most of the time it feels like the way it SHOULD be.
i want to be with somebody so badly...and i jsut have this twisted broken view of myself and ive convinced myself i need HIM. and that makes sense seeing as how hes the only person ive had a relationship with. but its not even him i want. its what we had, and me wanting the past.
how do i move on? i dont know. im not good at that.
but i can make the best of my time with my friends before friday comes...and i can protect myself.
cuz im really good at that. not getting hurt and all.
how do i ask you to forgive me when ive fucked up so many times?
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theres the way things are and then the way i want things to be.
not should.
just the way i want. but most of the time it feels like the way it SHOULD be.
i want to be with somebody so badly...and i jsut have this twisted broken view of myself and ive convinced myself i need HIM. and that makes sense seeing as how hes the only person ive had a relationship with. but its not even him i want. its what we had, and me wanting the past.
how do i move on? i dont know. im not good at that.
but i can make the best of my time with my friends before friday comes...and i can protect myself.
cuz im really good at that. not getting hurt and all.
how do i ask you to forgive me when ive fucked up so many times?
.