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its been a while since i felt angry. but over the past few days ive just been genuinely pissed off. like i want to hurt people. i want to break shit. i want to scream and yell and not care and i want to make other people angry.
i want to smash windows and destroy everything i see.
and its weird. because usually im sad. i look sad now...but im really not.
i feel like i could run for ten miles and still have adrenaline
like i never need to stop anything. this energy is overwhelming. i need and change and i need to be really truly 100% free but i cant create that in my own mind and at the same time i also know ill freak out if anything changes.
so what am i sposed to do?
i want to smash windows and destroy everything i see.
and its weird. because usually im sad. i look sad now...but im really not.
i feel like i could run for ten miles and still have adrenaline
like i never need to stop anything. this energy is overwhelming. i need and change and i need to be really truly 100% free but i cant create that in my own mind and at the same time i also know ill freak out if anything changes.
so what am i sposed to do?