I'm so exhasted!
I've been such a busy body. I mean school, work, home, sleep. that's all i am! ahhh
it would be so nice to have like 4 or 5 days in a row off.. but thats not going to happen until May so theres no point of even thinking about that. i had an afternoon off the other day after school... which was nice. but it makes me feel even more busy when i have to say that.
My girlfriend sent me a bouque of roses to work today. It was so sweet that i cried when i called her and told her thank you! i know... im such a dork... but no one has ever done anything that sweet for me. the last couple of years ive been so worried about running after my girlfriend and fixing our problems and being depressed i really forgot what it was like to feel geniunly happy. How did i get so lucky to have someone who tells me I'm beautiful and that she loves me? What did i do that was so right that I have a woman who loves to be by myside and spend time with me? I love that she isnt cold to me. I love that she kisses me all the time and can't get enough of me. I love that she understands me and sends me flowers to work! how sweet is that?!
I love that she's a woman and not a girl. I love that she knows who she is and is matured already. She's so certain of things, and so full of faith that it makes me feel safe and secure. I love that we fit each other. I love that she can cook and loves to cook and its so damn good i can't wait for dinner because just the smell makes my mouth water. I love that she thinks about me and asks me simple things like "how was your day?". I love that she's such a woman she makes me want to open her doors and pick her up to carry her over something. I love how she makes me feel like i'm needed and like i'm wanted. I love how this relationship is 100% on both sides and that she puts in just as much as i do.
i could go on and on... but i'll spare you the rest.
i'm just really happy. i'm really tired, but really happy.
it's nuts to think it's only been two months. it really feels like i've known her forever. but as horrible as my memory is, i can remember so much of our first few dates. i was soooooo nervous. the whole first two weeks we knew each other i couldnt stop shaking. my whole body would just tremble all the time. I couldnt control it.
I'm really looking forward to next month. after the 5th i'll have tuesdays and thursdays off with no school. im really looking forward to the down time. i need some time that i can just rest and relax and get ready for next semester.
well imma go eat my chicken
my brain is bouncing from one subject to the next neways...
im tellin ya.. this womans cookin makes me go crazy! mwahahaha
it would be so nice to have like 4 or 5 days in a row off.. but thats not going to happen until May so theres no point of even thinking about that. i had an afternoon off the other day after school... which was nice. but it makes me feel even more busy when i have to say that.
My girlfriend sent me a bouque of roses to work today. It was so sweet that i cried when i called her and told her thank you! i know... im such a dork... but no one has ever done anything that sweet for me. the last couple of years ive been so worried about running after my girlfriend and fixing our problems and being depressed i really forgot what it was like to feel geniunly happy. How did i get so lucky to have someone who tells me I'm beautiful and that she loves me? What did i do that was so right that I have a woman who loves to be by myside and spend time with me? I love that she isnt cold to me. I love that she kisses me all the time and can't get enough of me. I love that she understands me and sends me flowers to work! how sweet is that?!
I love that she's a woman and not a girl. I love that she knows who she is and is matured already. She's so certain of things, and so full of faith that it makes me feel safe and secure. I love that we fit each other. I love that she can cook and loves to cook and its so damn good i can't wait for dinner because just the smell makes my mouth water. I love that she thinks about me and asks me simple things like "how was your day?". I love that she's such a woman she makes me want to open her doors and pick her up to carry her over something. I love how she makes me feel like i'm needed and like i'm wanted. I love how this relationship is 100% on both sides and that she puts in just as much as i do.
i could go on and on... but i'll spare you the rest.
i'm just really happy. i'm really tired, but really happy.
it's nuts to think it's only been two months. it really feels like i've known her forever. but as horrible as my memory is, i can remember so much of our first few dates. i was soooooo nervous. the whole first two weeks we knew each other i couldnt stop shaking. my whole body would just tremble all the time. I couldnt control it.
I'm really looking forward to next month. after the 5th i'll have tuesdays and thursdays off with no school. im really looking forward to the down time. i need some time that i can just rest and relax and get ready for next semester.
well imma go eat my chicken
my brain is bouncing from one subject to the next neways...
im tellin ya.. this womans cookin makes me go crazy! mwahahaha