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i think i had a good day today.
but, i feel a little pathetic. like trying to always fight it on my own all the time, i mean i guess i'm running out of fuel. i'm trying to be an ass, and its not really working. its just turning people off from me. I think I need to get that book in Barnes in Noble : something like how to stay a nice guy and get hot chicks. Maybe if i wasn't so toungetied. fuck. hate it, i'm better now, but still haven't perfected it.
i just give up hope. it seems anything i really desire in life, fate lets me get real close, and then is like haha fucker, just kidding. But I'm always fighting, fighting stupid battles, that don't even matter, but i fight just to fight. But I'm calm and contained in public, and I feel its my duty, if I was a pyscho to everyone, honestly, i don't know how you would all handle yourselves.
But I think I need someone, so I can be there for everybody else. Because lately, I'm so wrapped up in myself, that when other people talk, they just might as well not talk. I can't hold conversations anymore. Mostly because I'm not really happy, for the most part its the season. I just don't feel attractice enough anymore to be completely honest. The winter like erodes you. But I've gotten to the point that I don't care. I just wish someone would see my nice side. Because it's not my only side, but I'm not the kind of guy who's all nice, and then tries to rape you in private. Girls are so stupid, and i'm starting to loose alot of respect for them. And since girls only read my entries, well, I'm sorry but that's how I feel.
but, i feel a little pathetic. like trying to always fight it on my own all the time, i mean i guess i'm running out of fuel. i'm trying to be an ass, and its not really working. its just turning people off from me. I think I need to get that book in Barnes in Noble : something like how to stay a nice guy and get hot chicks. Maybe if i wasn't so toungetied. fuck. hate it, i'm better now, but still haven't perfected it.
i just give up hope. it seems anything i really desire in life, fate lets me get real close, and then is like haha fucker, just kidding. But I'm always fighting, fighting stupid battles, that don't even matter, but i fight just to fight. But I'm calm and contained in public, and I feel its my duty, if I was a pyscho to everyone, honestly, i don't know how you would all handle yourselves.
But I think I need someone, so I can be there for everybody else. Because lately, I'm so wrapped up in myself, that when other people talk, they just might as well not talk. I can't hold conversations anymore. Mostly because I'm not really happy, for the most part its the season. I just don't feel attractice enough anymore to be completely honest. The winter like erodes you. But I've gotten to the point that I don't care. I just wish someone would see my nice side. Because it's not my only side, but I'm not the kind of guy who's all nice, and then tries to rape you in private. Girls are so stupid, and i'm starting to loose alot of respect for them. And since girls only read my entries, well, I'm sorry but that's how I feel.