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does anybody else actually get punished, or otherwise called actually getting "in trouble."
For some reason, I feel like no one else does. I'm a pretty good kid, I sit at home and do my homework, sometimes, when nobody else is. I'm a hard worker and always trying to better myself. I think too much. And the fucking few times, I need to relax, to do something "i'm not supposed to". I get slammed. Each and every time. And people might think it's because i'm stupid or have no common sense, like the time I handed in the English test. But honestly, I get slammed because I'm too nice, I do something with a good intention and people misread it. And my parents love to use me as an example to my younger brothers, even though, I have more morals and values and goals than both of them put together.
So I'm grounded for all of January for having "one beer".
And my driving lessons got pushed back for another month, so now I can't drive on my birthday, which is the biggest punch in the face. They will not let me fucking grow up. I don't even want to grow up, which makes it tough, but I know I have to. If it was up to them, I'd live in this house until I was 45. They won't let me live my on fucking life. I've told them too, they just don't understand. They can't comprehend it, it's like some mental block, and it really pisses me off. It makes me just want to give up. I try hard in school and I get "you study too much." I stop thinking non-stop and do something fun "You don't think enough." or "Why don't you think sometimes". or "stop giving into peer pressure" which is my favorite. What if i fucking like liquor? or getting drunk?. How about fucking that.
And fuck AIM, I was stupid enough to leave it on, and idiots left stupid messages to get me caught, because my mom is fucking nosy. But its a good thing- I don't know who said what. Because remember:
Everyone has a clean slate. = ). Isn't that amazing? But i have a feeling that people are going to add their names unto my list, really fucking fast. And since I'm home all of January, I will actually make one. Isn't that sad? Yes it is.
So not being able to drive is going to drive me crazy. I do the right thing 99% of the time. IT SEEMS LIKE NO ONE ELSE GETS SLAMMED AS HARD AS I DO, EVERYONE GETS AWAY WITH EVERYTHING. And it's not even like I would do bad shit if i could get away with it. Okay, I'm gonna go play computer games and maybe my research paper if i feel like it, but hey I don't.
Hopefully I don't become too anti-social.
For some reason, I feel like no one else does. I'm a pretty good kid, I sit at home and do my homework, sometimes, when nobody else is. I'm a hard worker and always trying to better myself. I think too much. And the fucking few times, I need to relax, to do something "i'm not supposed to". I get slammed. Each and every time. And people might think it's because i'm stupid or have no common sense, like the time I handed in the English test. But honestly, I get slammed because I'm too nice, I do something with a good intention and people misread it. And my parents love to use me as an example to my younger brothers, even though, I have more morals and values and goals than both of them put together.
So I'm grounded for all of January for having "one beer".
And my driving lessons got pushed back for another month, so now I can't drive on my birthday, which is the biggest punch in the face. They will not let me fucking grow up. I don't even want to grow up, which makes it tough, but I know I have to. If it was up to them, I'd live in this house until I was 45. They won't let me live my on fucking life. I've told them too, they just don't understand. They can't comprehend it, it's like some mental block, and it really pisses me off. It makes me just want to give up. I try hard in school and I get "you study too much." I stop thinking non-stop and do something fun "You don't think enough." or "Why don't you think sometimes". or "stop giving into peer pressure" which is my favorite. What if i fucking like liquor? or getting drunk?. How about fucking that.
And fuck AIM, I was stupid enough to leave it on, and idiots left stupid messages to get me caught, because my mom is fucking nosy. But its a good thing- I don't know who said what. Because remember:
Everyone has a clean slate. = ). Isn't that amazing? But i have a feeling that people are going to add their names unto my list, really fucking fast. And since I'm home all of January, I will actually make one. Isn't that sad? Yes it is.
So not being able to drive is going to drive me crazy. I do the right thing 99% of the time. IT SEEMS LIKE NO ONE ELSE GETS SLAMMED AS HARD AS I DO, EVERYONE GETS AWAY WITH EVERYTHING. And it's not even like I would do bad shit if i could get away with it. Okay, I'm gonna go play computer games and maybe my research paper if i feel like it, but hey I don't.
Hopefully I don't become too anti-social.