i only wished that you were mine.
see i never really liked the concept of sleep. But when you sleep just a few hours each night, for a week straight, it kind of piles of eachother. They recommend taking 8 hours of sleep a day. (not that any of us do, but thats what they say). This tranlates to 2 1/2 days. So basically 2and 1/2 days out of 7 days you spend sleeping. I wish I could make a battery or something to do the sleep for me. It's such a waste of time. In that 2 and 1/2 days I could easily read this 1100 page book + notes.
But today i felt really shaky and thats when i know, hey you need sleep. So stayed after for Interact. Passed out on the couch, somehow murmured to my dad that i'm not going to practice because i didn't feel good. And i don't. I've been feeling like i need to puke randomly, and its not that i actually do. I've been doing like an experiment for a month. And I determined. I can't eat either sugar or lactose anymore. It makes me sick. You're body changes every 7 years. Either one I eat too much of. Which sucks, but i'll eat them anyways.
So tonight.....
Vocab Studying, Chem Studying, London although that shouldn't be surprising.
Not doing Jenner's million math problems.
To make up for my sleeping until 7pm I'm staying up all night. Yes!
this weekend should be nice and sober although i don't want it to be.
I wish that I could just learn at my own pace and my own time. I would do it too. I do like to learn. Just not eight subjects at the same time. On a tight scheldude. Thats what i think i'll like about college. I mean this book, its pretty good. Just that not on the timeframe i have. And I don't understand. Why should i have no time? I mean its my life, i should have time if i want to have time. So tonight i'm making time, from my sleep time. im rambling now. and thats explainable peace.
coming back. i always come back and add more.
i feel hopeless again. i mean...
is it better to put everything you got out there? and then get really crushed. only put yourself halfway out there, half crushed? or just dont put yourself out there at all?
i mean i never put all my cards on the table right away anyways. but ive yet to decide which is better when pursueing someone. there.. something to comment about. answer that.
But today i felt really shaky and thats when i know, hey you need sleep. So stayed after for Interact. Passed out on the couch, somehow murmured to my dad that i'm not going to practice because i didn't feel good. And i don't. I've been feeling like i need to puke randomly, and its not that i actually do. I've been doing like an experiment for a month. And I determined. I can't eat either sugar or lactose anymore. It makes me sick. You're body changes every 7 years. Either one I eat too much of. Which sucks, but i'll eat them anyways.
So tonight.....
Vocab Studying, Chem Studying, London although that shouldn't be surprising.
Not doing Jenner's million math problems.
To make up for my sleeping until 7pm I'm staying up all night. Yes!
this weekend should be nice and sober although i don't want it to be.
I wish that I could just learn at my own pace and my own time. I would do it too. I do like to learn. Just not eight subjects at the same time. On a tight scheldude. Thats what i think i'll like about college. I mean this book, its pretty good. Just that not on the timeframe i have. And I don't understand. Why should i have no time? I mean its my life, i should have time if i want to have time. So tonight i'm making time, from my sleep time. im rambling now. and thats explainable peace.
coming back. i always come back and add more.
i feel hopeless again. i mean...
is it better to put everything you got out there? and then get really crushed. only put yourself halfway out there, half crushed? or just dont put yourself out there at all?
i mean i never put all my cards on the table right away anyways. but ive yet to decide which is better when pursueing someone. there.. something to comment about. answer that.