Thanks to the people who shared and helped us feel intact...
...to come back, shake it off, and ride to rock again.
Hot Water Music - 'Forever and Counting'
I like 'direct' Benny, the Benny who asks questions. It's easier when you know where people are coming from, sometimes it causes minor drama and I have to do things like feel emotions which aren't up there on my top 5 fun things, but these days it takes more than some partial rejection and confusion to bring me down. I'm happy with how things are in my life anything extra is a bonus, so I'm just going to let whatever is happening with the person who did profess that 'I was alright' run and play it by ear, let it just naturally evolve if it's the right thing. On the plus side not being committed to anything means I can go out and play the field...right? Or did I miss some subtext where doing that would make me a shit?
Not that I really even 'play the field' these days, I'm not a great fan of talking to people I don't know, it's only if I'm introduced and really feel like making the effort that I do (some people don't know how lucky they are), all seems like too much effort. I prefer dancing and then relaxing at home listening to records! It still annoys me slightly that people just seem to assume that because I like them I'd necessarily want to have some form of serious relationship. I'm pretty picky these days I think I need to get to know people a lot more before I entertain those thoughts...I do admit though that I still have an impatient little "new person=best thing ever" rush when I meet someone which I have to get past before I can be more chilled and really get into someone.
I've had a pretty good week this week although I was really glad when it was Friday and I have no idea why I was hanging out for it so much. Played football on Thursday night which was fun although I think the gym had exhausted my legs the day before as they felt like lead after about 5 minutes, but I naturally I tried to push through it with varying success. The gig at the Fenton last night was great, it's been a while since I've been to a gig and ages since I've been to a really noisy/metally/hardcore gig fun times. Star after was okay, not blinding but it never is.
Tonight is all about dancing. I've built it up in my head though so it could be crap, but good friends going means it shouldn't be.
Going swimming in a bit and then possibly running tomorrow, I think I'm a little bit addicted to exercise.
Hot Water Music - 'Forever and Counting'
I like 'direct' Benny, the Benny who asks questions. It's easier when you know where people are coming from, sometimes it causes minor drama and I have to do things like feel emotions which aren't up there on my top 5 fun things, but these days it takes more than some partial rejection and confusion to bring me down. I'm happy with how things are in my life anything extra is a bonus, so I'm just going to let whatever is happening with the person who did profess that 'I was alright' run and play it by ear, let it just naturally evolve if it's the right thing. On the plus side not being committed to anything means I can go out and play the field...right? Or did I miss some subtext where doing that would make me a shit?
Not that I really even 'play the field' these days, I'm not a great fan of talking to people I don't know, it's only if I'm introduced and really feel like making the effort that I do (some people don't know how lucky they are), all seems like too much effort. I prefer dancing and then relaxing at home listening to records! It still annoys me slightly that people just seem to assume that because I like them I'd necessarily want to have some form of serious relationship. I'm pretty picky these days I think I need to get to know people a lot more before I entertain those thoughts...I do admit though that I still have an impatient little "new person=best thing ever" rush when I meet someone which I have to get past before I can be more chilled and really get into someone.
I've had a pretty good week this week although I was really glad when it was Friday and I have no idea why I was hanging out for it so much. Played football on Thursday night which was fun although I think the gym had exhausted my legs the day before as they felt like lead after about 5 minutes, but I naturally I tried to push through it with varying success. The gig at the Fenton last night was great, it's been a while since I've been to a gig and ages since I've been to a really noisy/metally/hardcore gig fun times. Star after was okay, not blinding but it never is.
Tonight is all about dancing. I've built it up in my head though so it could be crap, but good friends going means it shouldn't be.
Going swimming in a bit and then possibly running tomorrow, I think I'm a little bit addicted to exercise.