I said its time we really take a look at ourselves...
...and start caring about someone else.
Have Heart - 'About Face'
Today has been a really good day off, got up at a decent hour and was productive and creative. Wrote 4 songs on the guitar for a new project (not the one I should be writing for though) and had a tidy/spring clean of my room. Naturally the soundtrack has been killer.
Bane, No For An Answer, Betrayed, Cold One, Gorilla Biscuits, Burning Kitchen, Career Suicide, Carry On, Good Clean Fun, 411, Mainstrike, Los Crudos, Spitboy and Annihilation Time. I'm definitely having a 'hardcore' phase.
I'm feeling more and more like who I was before 'the shit went down' as it were, but I'm keeping myself mentally in check a lot better and I'm finding myself interested and inspired in/by things again. I might start 'writing' regularly again which could mean a possible fanzine in the future...I actually feel confident in that I have something to say, but now it's tempered by knowing I'm not necessarily right all the time.
Today I feel like I could take on the world, but I'm wise enough to know I can only take on some of it at a time and that my impact may be limited and I might not even see it.
I know that frankly I don't know shit, as the Op Ivy song says 'all I know is I don't know nothing'. On a tangent I'm sure there is a philosopher who said something similar in better English but I can't for the life of me remember who which is quite indicative of me I think, can quote song lyrics can't quote philosophy. Attached to this is that I am aware no one likes someone who thinks they're right all the time and humility is a good character trait to have. But I've noticed that the people who seem to 'get ahead' in the society we live in are those who act with confidence and often make it appear that they are 'right'. This is definitely true of some of the managers at my work but I can also see it in how people act in their personal lives to. People use this 'I'm right therefore you listen' way of acting to get other people to do what they want and it works.
I'm sure that a lot of the time I do know a lot of things and I am right. But I've spent a lot of time learning to shut up, because I'm not right all the time. Learning to temper advice and knowledge with caveats so that I am not dominating or manipulating is a skill I hope I've learnt and exhibit even if it means that I don't say much, but I'd rather be quiet than manipulate people. Yet I find myself throwing a jokey "I'm the best" element into my conversations with others because I know that if you say something enough people do believe it and I know from years of experience that no one likes those who self-deprecate constantly. It just all feels rather cynical, like your self promoting on a daily basis in order to gain some element of power rather than communicating in order to mutually reach a conclusion/invoke an event or form some agreement.
This is why I shouldn't be allowed to sit around on my own thinking too much and/or have friends who actually engage me in debate/deep meaningful conversations, last time I went crazy self-analyzing everything I did.
Anyhow, I'm ace me.
Have Heart - 'About Face'
Today has been a really good day off, got up at a decent hour and was productive and creative. Wrote 4 songs on the guitar for a new project (not the one I should be writing for though) and had a tidy/spring clean of my room. Naturally the soundtrack has been killer.
Bane, No For An Answer, Betrayed, Cold One, Gorilla Biscuits, Burning Kitchen, Career Suicide, Carry On, Good Clean Fun, 411, Mainstrike, Los Crudos, Spitboy and Annihilation Time. I'm definitely having a 'hardcore' phase.
I'm feeling more and more like who I was before 'the shit went down' as it were, but I'm keeping myself mentally in check a lot better and I'm finding myself interested and inspired in/by things again. I might start 'writing' regularly again which could mean a possible fanzine in the future...I actually feel confident in that I have something to say, but now it's tempered by knowing I'm not necessarily right all the time.
Today I feel like I could take on the world, but I'm wise enough to know I can only take on some of it at a time and that my impact may be limited and I might not even see it.
I know that frankly I don't know shit, as the Op Ivy song says 'all I know is I don't know nothing'. On a tangent I'm sure there is a philosopher who said something similar in better English but I can't for the life of me remember who which is quite indicative of me I think, can quote song lyrics can't quote philosophy. Attached to this is that I am aware no one likes someone who thinks they're right all the time and humility is a good character trait to have. But I've noticed that the people who seem to 'get ahead' in the society we live in are those who act with confidence and often make it appear that they are 'right'. This is definitely true of some of the managers at my work but I can also see it in how people act in their personal lives to. People use this 'I'm right therefore you listen' way of acting to get other people to do what they want and it works.
I'm sure that a lot of the time I do know a lot of things and I am right. But I've spent a lot of time learning to shut up, because I'm not right all the time. Learning to temper advice and knowledge with caveats so that I am not dominating or manipulating is a skill I hope I've learnt and exhibit even if it means that I don't say much, but I'd rather be quiet than manipulate people. Yet I find myself throwing a jokey "I'm the best" element into my conversations with others because I know that if you say something enough people do believe it and I know from years of experience that no one likes those who self-deprecate constantly. It just all feels rather cynical, like your self promoting on a daily basis in order to gain some element of power rather than communicating in order to mutually reach a conclusion/invoke an event or form some agreement.
This is why I shouldn't be allowed to sit around on my own thinking too much and/or have friends who actually engage me in debate/deep meaningful conversations, last time I went crazy self-analyzing everything I did.
Anyhow, I'm ace me.