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I hate when you know you should cry but no tears come out, there is no emotion to show the hurt you feel inside. That is exactly how i feel right now and it is depressing. I have had to face family issues this week- and the saddest part is it has happened to another family this week. It is really making me think about stuff. I cant even decide how i feel: relieved, angry, sad, depressed, indifferent, numb...I cant decide whether to cry or yell, hit someone or lay there helpless and hopeless. Im just so confused and it makes it worse that every time i come home my mom and my sister have a talk about my parents. Why cant our family be like it was 6 years ago, why am i finally realizing the gist of what happened 6 months ago, and why am i in this family? is there an answer or reason to any of those? Maybe i am here to help others who are going through the same thing? i dont know...what i do know is i want to thank shelbey and harris and any others for listening to me bitch for hours.

In Him,
taylor

ps- sorry about the extremely depressing entry. my bad