let me stick my needles in

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wanna know what i hate about the human race? people sit there and complain and pick fights because they want something and can't have it. but then they just give up and lose willingly so they can look like a bunch of pitiful victims. they stop fighting for what they want because they don't want the stress or the anger. they just want to be happy all the time and they think that hiding from their problems is going to do that for them. i mean fuck half of the people in my life are like that. they just give up instead of fighting for what they want. sure it may look hopeless but there's always the chance that you'll get what you want. and why would you want to give up on a chance for something better? if people had the strength and the balls to fight for what they want then people WOULD BE HAPPY. you aren't happy when in hiding. it's all fake. it's all a mask. and ugly mask. everyone wears one at some point in their lives but enough of them grow up and face their own shit. but there's those people like my father that go their whole lives wearing this mask and the never accomplish anything of significance because they sit on their ass all day and wait for something to fall into their laps. i'm so tired of dealing with people like that. i love happy people, they are amazing. i admit i'm not the happiest person in the world but at least i don't give up when i want something better. at least when things get tough i don't back down like a fucking coward. i just want people to fight. at least the people i love. if they really fought for what they wanted, and not for the drama either, if they fought for the reward in the long run, they'd be beautifully happy. that's what i'm working towards and you know what i feel like a fucking race car with nothing but green lights ahead because of it.
sorry about my ranting and raving. not sure where i was trying to go with that.

school's tomorrow. joy...

peace. love. nirvana.