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im so angry. its fucking ridiculous. why are people so scared of words? somewhere we went wrong and gave them too much power... let them take us over. we lost control. they rule us not us them. in three days i'll be sixteen. what does that mean? seems silly. i miss silly. i miss love. i miss trust. i remember calling my friends and telling them every stupid detail. what happened? when did u give up on me? i guess when i did. im a credulous person. i fall in love to easily then don't know what to do. i got my heartbroken. all my silly insecurities exhibited. im weak. fuck beauty, fuck love, fuck emotions. just keep me sane. i need to sort my soul. its filled with maudlin tears. i just want to feel ok. someone to hold me at the end of the day that i know wont leave me. am i that hard to be around? well, i guess i kinda am. but ill work on it... im trying. something with no strings, something that makes things simple. some1 i love, but in a way that doesnt drive them away. a kiss at the end of the day. all my friends used to love me. we'd tell eachother everything. hmm... i cant let go. im too in love. really im just scared and angry and somewhere i lost my constant. nothings permanent. teach me to let go.