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i haven't been able to stop stuffing my fucking face all day. i mean, im all for having a good appetite, but it's like im trying to fill some emptiness inside me and it's just a bottomless pit.
maybe it's that damned god shaped hole.
but seriously now, winter's been especially monotonous and shitty feeling lately. not that going out and such isn't fun, but i feel really restless. and lethargic at the same time. haha, how artsy, right, using two words that dont' make much sense together...i must switch off. you know those phases you go through where you're just really energetic towards whatever youre doing and you end up being really productive, and then those other phases where you only give a half a shit about everything? i guess im just in a dip.
the lethargy has been a result of being very tired. and not just tired, that's not the right word, my fucking soul is fatigued. haha.... mmm i guess it could be the result of events in my envionment wearing me down psychologically, or it could just be that i need to pop some iron pills. isn't it funny how something so simple could stop you feeling like complicated shit? oh man, the other thing my mom said to do was to get some sunlight by sitting under the natural sunlight light bulbs she put in some of the rooms of our house. sunlight bulbs.
oh another note, there's a song that's always playing when im comming home, this really mello synthesized stuff, i used to think the lyrics were stupid but the song's grown on me...i think part of the refrain is "things get damaged, things get broken, i thought something something something..words something spoken..." i dont remember, i just enjoy the melody. who the heck sings it?
maybe it's that damned god shaped hole.
but seriously now, winter's been especially monotonous and shitty feeling lately. not that going out and such isn't fun, but i feel really restless. and lethargic at the same time. haha, how artsy, right, using two words that dont' make much sense together...i must switch off. you know those phases you go through where you're just really energetic towards whatever youre doing and you end up being really productive, and then those other phases where you only give a half a shit about everything? i guess im just in a dip.
the lethargy has been a result of being very tired. and not just tired, that's not the right word, my fucking soul is fatigued. haha.... mmm i guess it could be the result of events in my envionment wearing me down psychologically, or it could just be that i need to pop some iron pills. isn't it funny how something so simple could stop you feeling like complicated shit? oh man, the other thing my mom said to do was to get some sunlight by sitting under the natural sunlight light bulbs she put in some of the rooms of our house. sunlight bulbs.
oh another note, there's a song that's always playing when im comming home, this really mello synthesized stuff, i used to think the lyrics were stupid but the song's grown on me...i think part of the refrain is "things get damaged, things get broken, i thought something something something..words something spoken..." i dont remember, i just enjoy the melody. who the heck sings it?