Whats been going on the past 2 months
Well its been a while since I last up dated, so here is the 411......
I found my biological mother, in October. I have not seen or heard from her in 18 years. I was raised to think that she chose a man over me and my sister, and that she didn't want either of us cause we were not black, but come to find out my biological father and his parents, who adopted me, lied to Lisa and made her sign over rights and then told her to never make contact with either one of us (my sister and I). So I have been catching up on the years lost. I love this woman, and have always been scared to find her due to the fact that I didn't think I would ever be good enough for her. But I am the oldest of 9 children, on her side at least, my sperm donor has a lil boy that he rubs in my face all the time, but I love T.J. (sperm donors son). But yeah I have been getting to know all my lil sisters and brothers. And they all have known about me since day 1. My mama, is something special, she told me that it killed her to lose her first child, and told me I was her Bestest and Brightest. I finally feel whole, like I belong, and I am loving it. I get to meet her, my grandmother, my aunt, and all my lil sibblings in March. I am soooo scared that I will be a let down to them. I am planing on moving up to Amerillo (don't know how to spell it) to help take care of one of my sisters. And even though I have only know these kids for 2 months, I am SOO protective of them. I also found out I am the 3rd gay child, and that my mother is bi, and has a "wife". THAT'S SO FUCKING AWSOME!!!!!.......
I finished my first semester of college, and made a 3.0 GPA (shocked) I have never made grades like that in all my life.
I got new pictures of my son, and I love that boy to death, he looks so much like my mother it's not even funny. I don't know how something that beautiful, and pure, ever came from me. But he did and he is growing up so fast, he just turned 3 October 26th, and is sooooo tall, I donno where he gets it from, cause his sperm donor is shorter than me, and everyone on both sides of the family are all short. I am the 2nd tallest. The boy comes up past my hips, he is growing up WAY too fast.
Me and Jessie are over, once and for all. It was a bad way to end things but we are still friends. Me and Chelsey started going back out. She really made me happy, and I felt as if I was floating when I was with her, and talked to her. But just like the last 2 times, right when I start to fall head over heels for her, she ends it. She dumped me December 25. Needless to say my Christmas sucked. Me and Jennifer (not my ex) started talking again, and she is telling me she loves me and all this, and I do have feelings for her, I have since January, but I am not ready for another relationship. Chelsey really hurt me, and I know that was not what she meant to do. But I still care for her, and want to be there for her. I dont wanna lose her all together, I mean if I can't have her as my girlfriend, I'd at least like to stay friends with her. I think this was one of our best break ups, there were no hurtful things said, or leaving on a bad foot. But I understand she is not ready, and I respect that.
I got a new tattoo last night, its fucking awsome!! It's the lesbian sign (two female signs joined) and it's colored in rainbow colors. I got it in the middle of my lower back, OMG did that hurt!!!! But I am glad I got it done, now I can mark that off the list. Lol.
Well there is the past two months summed up for ya. Hope I didn't bore you too much. Write more later.
I found my biological mother, in October. I have not seen or heard from her in 18 years. I was raised to think that she chose a man over me and my sister, and that she didn't want either of us cause we were not black, but come to find out my biological father and his parents, who adopted me, lied to Lisa and made her sign over rights and then told her to never make contact with either one of us (my sister and I). So I have been catching up on the years lost. I love this woman, and have always been scared to find her due to the fact that I didn't think I would ever be good enough for her. But I am the oldest of 9 children, on her side at least, my sperm donor has a lil boy that he rubs in my face all the time, but I love T.J. (sperm donors son). But yeah I have been getting to know all my lil sisters and brothers. And they all have known about me since day 1. My mama, is something special, she told me that it killed her to lose her first child, and told me I was her Bestest and Brightest. I finally feel whole, like I belong, and I am loving it. I get to meet her, my grandmother, my aunt, and all my lil sibblings in March. I am soooo scared that I will be a let down to them. I am planing on moving up to Amerillo (don't know how to spell it) to help take care of one of my sisters. And even though I have only know these kids for 2 months, I am SOO protective of them. I also found out I am the 3rd gay child, and that my mother is bi, and has a "wife". THAT'S SO FUCKING AWSOME!!!!!.......
I finished my first semester of college, and made a 3.0 GPA (shocked) I have never made grades like that in all my life.
I got new pictures of my son, and I love that boy to death, he looks so much like my mother it's not even funny. I don't know how something that beautiful, and pure, ever came from me. But he did and he is growing up so fast, he just turned 3 October 26th, and is sooooo tall, I donno where he gets it from, cause his sperm donor is shorter than me, and everyone on both sides of the family are all short. I am the 2nd tallest. The boy comes up past my hips, he is growing up WAY too fast.
Me and Jessie are over, once and for all. It was a bad way to end things but we are still friends. Me and Chelsey started going back out. She really made me happy, and I felt as if I was floating when I was with her, and talked to her. But just like the last 2 times, right when I start to fall head over heels for her, she ends it. She dumped me December 25. Needless to say my Christmas sucked. Me and Jennifer (not my ex) started talking again, and she is telling me she loves me and all this, and I do have feelings for her, I have since January, but I am not ready for another relationship. Chelsey really hurt me, and I know that was not what she meant to do. But I still care for her, and want to be there for her. I dont wanna lose her all together, I mean if I can't have her as my girlfriend, I'd at least like to stay friends with her. I think this was one of our best break ups, there were no hurtful things said, or leaving on a bad foot. But I understand she is not ready, and I respect that.
I got a new tattoo last night, its fucking awsome!! It's the lesbian sign (two female signs joined) and it's colored in rainbow colors. I got it in the middle of my lower back, OMG did that hurt!!!! But I am glad I got it done, now I can mark that off the list. Lol.
Well there is the past two months summed up for ya. Hope I didn't bore you too much. Write more later.