Goodbye

[ctowncass04]

Well this is it.... I can't do it anymore......... I guess up, on everything, not just relationships, but life its self...... I finally popped the question to Jesica, and I didn't get a defenit "no" but how she has been avoiding me, lets me know, she don't want me. and I dont blame her......I mean look at me....... and then look at her. All I know

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[sinful_bliss08]

Cassie, first off, let me say that you didn't scare me off or whatever when you "popped the question". Infact, I thought it was really sweet to know that you loved me that much. But like I said then, it's not a yes, but it's defiently not a no. Okay, secondly, I'm sorry for acting the way I have lately. I know it seems like I've been avoiding you but you have no earthly idea what's been going on here lately!! It's absolutely crazy!!!!!! Yeah, I do need to talk about things to someone and I can do it more through typing or texting, but I'm up to my limit with texts this month...that's one reason I haven't been writing you back. My mom said that if I go over texts again this month, she's taking my phone. Why don't I talk on the phone? B/c I shy up, and you know that. *lol* When we use to talk on the phone, you know how I'd get all quiet and stuff...so I know I wouldn't be able to talk about anything. But I dunno what to do. I do know that it's not fair at all to keep you waiting and guessing like this. Heck, it drives me insane too. But I do wanna be with you!!!!!!! And I know it prolly don't seem that way at all, but I honestly do! But it's just hard to figure all this stuff out right now, and I'm gonna need some time to get through everything that's going on now. I hope you understand. I really am sorry for the way I've been acting and treating you. I'm sorry if I've mad you mad or sad. But if you don't accept my apology, that's fine, I'll understand. But I love you and don't forget that. And yeah, I do have a funny way of showing someone I love them...

I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!

[ctowncass04]

Jessie I am not mad at you.... I cold never be mad at you. I love you....Well hun E-mail me whats been going on. If we cant be together right now I still wanna be apart of your life..... I'm sorry if I have added stress to your problems..... It just seemed that way... I understand about the text thing, but I e-mailed you and everything, I love you sooo very much and the only reason I have been acting like this is cause I care and I am scared I lost you.....I dont wanna be the reason you lose your phone.....I know you shy up, but thats one thing I love about you, its sooo cute.... But you dont have to be shy, I mean I am too when ever I talk to you, I'm sooo scared I'll sound stupid.....And I wanna be with you too, and I understand that right now you need time, and thats part of the reason we are not together.... But I dont mind waiting for you, you're well worth the wait...... I'd walk to the ends of the Earth for you..... No hun you dont have a funny way of showing it.... Each person shows it differently..... I just wanna be there for you, I know our distance is hard right now, but if I could be there to hold you when you were down or crying I would in a heart beat. I'm sorry I thought that way, you mean everything to me........ and I wish I could express how I feel about you on the phone but I am too scared to scaring you away. Lol..... I love you Jessica, with all my heart, and if I didnt love you I would not be willing to wait for you...... I am willing and I do love you.