Confussed, and upset
Well, it happened again..... those words I have come to hate!!!! "I love you, but I'm not in love with you"...... GOD!!!!!!!! WHAT IS UP WITH THESE GIRLS!!?!?!? Do they all use that line? I mean WTF!??! I am really getting fed up with all this immture bullshit..... I am 20 years old and have been throught more things than most fucken 25 year olds have..... I have a 3 year old son, for God sakes!!!! I don't want a petty bullshit relationship.... I am in college to better myself, Jenny, she was the best thing to ever walk into my life.... she taught me to love myself, and trust others, no matter what happened between us.... and even though we are not together, and I know we will never be together again, our friendship, is something I wouldn't trade for the world. Sure we had our ups and downs, and for a while we didn't even talk, but I mean we are not BEST friends, I'll admit that, but we are some what close. Right Jenny? But as far as this last relationship I had, with Chelsey, I loved the girl, I will admit it, and I would do anything for her, except give up school, but it was not enough for her..... I was not enough for her..... she wants her ex....... I know Chelsey I have made you cry in the past, and I never did it on purpouse. But you lied to me, more than once, and I know I lied about the dope thing, and I guess about Brandy..... but you knew about Andrea straight up, and the only reason, I did sleep with her was cause you slept with that girl. I want us to be friends, I don't wanna be another ex, that you hate, and talk shit about, and fight with. It killed me when me and Jenny did it. C/S
But yeah I'm ready for some thing serious folks. I want a girl that will love me, and will know I will take care of her, and know that I will love her no matter what. Someone who does not mind being spoild, or treated the way she should be treated..... Someone I can hold at night and just watch as she sleeps, and protect her, and if she don't wanna have a job, thats fine, cause what I'm going to college for, we will be well off weither she works or not. But it seems that, that right there folks, is asking too much...... so I donno..... But oh well.... I'm going to go..... See you on da flip side....
But yeah I'm ready for some thing serious folks. I want a girl that will love me, and will know I will take care of her, and know that I will love her no matter what. Someone who does not mind being spoild, or treated the way she should be treated..... Someone I can hold at night and just watch as she sleeps, and protect her, and if she don't wanna have a job, thats fine, cause what I'm going to college for, we will be well off weither she works or not. But it seems that, that right there folks, is asking too much...... so I donno..... But oh well.... I'm going to go..... See you on da flip side....