Depressed and shitty feeling.

[ctown_jock_06]

So alots happened since i updated. Umm yeah i just dont want to talk about that. good things but more bad... I miss someone alot wont name any names, I geuss seeing it was in her journal me and lindsey broke up. Something feels weird tho, i just cant put my finger on it yet. I cant sleep, I think about her all day long, i miss her alot and i just dont know what else i can do. I've cried over it, I've sat and thought about why it happened and it hurts.

You are my first
you are my love
you are my angel
you are my last

I would go to any mountain
i would climb any hill
I would take a bullet
any wish i would fulfill.

I never believed in love
untill you came into my life
Now a peice of me feels gone
and i cant get it back

I wish i could hold you
i wish i could call you mine
i wish this never happened
i wish..

Its not the best poem i ever wrote but it just means alot. I try to be a good guy and be nice and stuff. Sometimes i wonder if good guys finish first or last? Maybe i should just be a jerk even tho its not me?. Noone can really piss me off, i dont lose my cool and im always trying to help someone. I geuss i dunno what else to say i just feel shitty and i want my only one back.

that kid. #65.