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Wow, so much to write about. The show was soo good! I don't know if all of you thought so or not, but I did. I mean, I didnt see it, but every audience loved it, except maybe saturday matinee (oh my god, u shouldve heard that last note of the curtain call for that performance! jesus, it was DISGUSTING) Anyway, so other than that it was awesome. Lizzie, i totally was on drugs last week. I havent been that happy in a really long time. I love performing, and it was exhilerating to do this show, you have no idea. Friday night was such a great show. Ya know at the end when mel and i sing "oh ti moune, you will always be a part of us..." So I realized that it would be my last show ever with mel and i was about to cry when i came out to do that part. It worked though, bc we're supposed to be sad bc of her death. And then after my monologue when i turn around and run to mel, we were both so sad/happy about being together. After the show she cried and i almost did. It was really sad. Then we started talking about our first show together (when i was in 2nd grade! ali u saw it remember, The True Trial of Alexandra T Wolf) All my brother's stagedoor friends were so nice! they bought me flowers and they congratulated me and when i came home the next day from mels they had left me this really nice note about how proud of me they were! yay for zoe! I was really happy they came. And bens friend jed, who i love, was like, Zoe! You have to introduce me to Erzulie! (debbie) it was so funny. god shes so gorgeous, i could kill her. and shes so nice! we just stood there talking about how much fun we had together and how good we are. I love her! i told her i learned so much from her, and it was just so happy. Then we had the cast party, which was fun. I was good, i didnt eat any pizza. lots of gummy cherries though, omg theyre so good. im trying to lose a little weight, im sick of being 2nd best to julia. also though i was feeling kinda sick already then and my tummy hurt so i didnt want pizza. mel and i put on Hair and tried to do the dance to it but we couldnt remember most of it so we just jumped around and waved our hair everywhere. so much fun, and mike tapscott was laughing hysterically at us. yay! then we went to mels afterward. omg! it was so funny, we had this extra pizza with us that we wanted to give to a homeless person, so we were walking along and mike was carrying the pizza, and we saw a homeless guy. so mike offers the pizza to him and he goes, "i'm not homeless man!" omg we were sooo embarrassed. it so wasnt our fault though! he was crouched up against the building wrapped up in his sweater. lol, it was so amusing. Then we went to mels, and julia emily and mike were like having an orgi! it was crazy! they were flirting sooo much. when julia and emily left we all gave mike a really hard time about it. especially bc as soon as they were gone he went straight for him. everyone said he was just going down the line of freshman, but i told him he was going in order of skinniness. see, if i were skinny then maybe i wouldnt be third best. Then we went to the prom...enade, and we talked about the show and about ms pressman and stuff. we decided that she likes me but she doesnt want to. like, she doesnt have reason to dislike me, and she will eventually like me, but she doesnt want me to get a big head about it, so she is tough on me now. she also doesnt want me to argue with her a lot like ben does. she has really high standards of me, ive noticed. i think thats a good thing though, or it will be when im an upper classmen. im sick of being young. then we were singing the songs and that was happy. we walked mike and his cousin, who was probably really embarrassed by us, to the subway and sang why we tell the story, and i did that crazy step that mike thinks is totally adorable. and then when they got to the YOU ARE WHY, mel fell trying to jump and point at me. twas very funny. then dana, sophie, maxine, david, and i all slept at mels. the next morning i took a shower with my bra on!!!! it was hysterically ditzy, i loved it. then we had strike and we painted the stage for the middle school show. i was sitting there painting and everyone said i looked like cinderella, yay! and then they started singing the nightingale song. it was funny. then debbie and i put paint handprints on each other. i like those pants now! theyre the ones that i wore all the time last year and i stopped wearing this year bc i gained too much weight. i fit into them now though! yay! ill wear them soon :o).
I've known for a few weeks now that I would be depressed when the show finished, and I was so right. My mom said to me on saturday before the mat that i was probably manic depressive and i would crash after the show. We jsut laughed and i gave her a big hug. now she keeps making fun of me and saying i have post-show-depression. Ive been so sad though. its like ive come down from my high, and im like having a hangover. its also just that im sick and disgusting. my throat is killing me and im really sick, and i almost threw up yesterday, but i didnt. i feel like such shit thoguh. and i hate missing school, but here i am at home right now. it sucks. i want someone to come visit me, but nobody is going to. tear. im so bored, and i have no motivation to feel better bc theres no show nemore. i miss it, and i miss the cast, and i miss not having to make any social plans after school bc i have rehearsal. i hate making plans, and now i have to again. im really not happy that its over. im so bored. ill feel better soon though probably. i cant wait to get the video. i want to know if it was actually good. wow, this entry has been way too long....ill write more later though, lol. i want to go now. i need to lie down im all achy. call me and make me feel better! byebye :o)