But everything looks perfect from far away...

[ctmorph]

I think there are times in everyone's life where they stop and look at how they're living. Some of us like what we see, some of us don't. But it's not only that. Maybe we'll think to ourselves, "If I die today would I be satisfied with how I've spent my time here?" Most everyone has a check list of things to do in life. Get married, have kids, get a job, travel to all 50 states, be a teacher, graduate from college, open your own business, fix problems with your parents, ect. But what if you couldn't complete all of those. I mean for me, if I got whacked by a bus on my way to the music building this afternoon should I be upset that I never got married, had children, became a music teacher, fell really truely in love with someone, saw my sister's wedding, give my dad his first grandson, celebrate my mom's 50th birthday, all those important things that were out of my reach because of the 19 short years I've spent in this life?

I guess I'm at one of those stages right now where I'm seeing if I like my life or not. How I've lived it, how I'm living it, how I plan to live it. I think it's funny sometimes how someone can look at a person and think they're life is perfect when underneath that happy exterior is a hurricane of emotions and confusion. I guess it's just interesting how some of the people who appear the bravest are just as terrified as the rest of us.

...come down now but we'll stay