I'm begging you to be my escape
Something's not right..
I have this weird/pessimistic feeling right now and I can't actually pinpoint why. I mean, I'm happy. But not.. HAPPY ..? That makes no sense, I realize, but it's how I feel. Like on the surface everything is gorgeous. But there's something screwed up.. even if just in my own head. I don't understand why I can never leave well enough alone and be okay with what I have going on in my life. It seems like I can have everything going so perfect for a short while and then something clicks in my mind telling me something's wrong. I honestly do NOT understand. It's giving me a headache and what's worse is that I know this is probably nothing. I'm getting upset about absolutely NOTHING. haha I swear I'm fucking crazy. I mean seriously screwed up, insane, gone. But then again what if I have this feeling for a reason?
Gah. What the fuck.
I have this weird/pessimistic feeling right now and I can't actually pinpoint why. I mean, I'm happy. But not.. HAPPY ..? That makes no sense, I realize, but it's how I feel. Like on the surface everything is gorgeous. But there's something screwed up.. even if just in my own head. I don't understand why I can never leave well enough alone and be okay with what I have going on in my life. It seems like I can have everything going so perfect for a short while and then something clicks in my mind telling me something's wrong. I honestly do NOT understand. It's giving me a headache and what's worse is that I know this is probably nothing. I'm getting upset about absolutely NOTHING. haha I swear I'm fucking crazy. I mean seriously screwed up, insane, gone. But then again what if I have this feeling for a reason?
Gah. What the fuck.