if it were up to me, we'd have all of the time in the world, just stay right where I can see you...
yesterday wasn't too great...
I went over to my moms for a bit and broke down in tears..she gave me a hug and yadda yadda yadda.
I came home, tried to sleep didn't work out.
then I started talking to him, and he asked me if i had school or work.. and i said no. "you don't!?!? COME OVER!!" and of course, i'm at my dads..didnt shower at all..my eyes are all red..no make-up. and my dad wasn't home yet from work..but i'm like fuck it, i'm leaving. and i ran out of the house. This seems to happen all the time.. when I go long periods without seeing him, and i start getting upset to the point where i think i might explode.. it just comes out of nowhere that i end up seeing him randomly. we talked, watched funny movies, drank beer. I can never seem to get the words out when we're actually together though..why would I wanna talk about that stuff..I'm happy when I finally get to be with him..the most I got out was.. "I dont want you to go.." and he just said.. "I know, but theres nothing I can do.." obviously. I know I'll just blurt out everything right before he leaves.
Today, I slept all day long. Dan came over for a bit. we talked, laughed of course. I'm still exhausted. I miss nakita.
I look like death. Ive been sleeping, but i start looking like shit when i stress out too much. I get all pale and just gross looking. I hope I can pull myself together soon.
I need to do some homework.
good night.
I went over to my moms for a bit and broke down in tears..she gave me a hug and yadda yadda yadda.
I came home, tried to sleep didn't work out.
then I started talking to him, and he asked me if i had school or work.. and i said no. "you don't!?!? COME OVER!!" and of course, i'm at my dads..didnt shower at all..my eyes are all red..no make-up. and my dad wasn't home yet from work..but i'm like fuck it, i'm leaving. and i ran out of the house. This seems to happen all the time.. when I go long periods without seeing him, and i start getting upset to the point where i think i might explode.. it just comes out of nowhere that i end up seeing him randomly. we talked, watched funny movies, drank beer. I can never seem to get the words out when we're actually together though..why would I wanna talk about that stuff..I'm happy when I finally get to be with him..the most I got out was.. "I dont want you to go.." and he just said.. "I know, but theres nothing I can do.." obviously. I know I'll just blurt out everything right before he leaves.
Today, I slept all day long. Dan came over for a bit. we talked, laughed of course. I'm still exhausted. I miss nakita.
I look like death. Ive been sleeping, but i start looking like shit when i stress out too much. I get all pale and just gross looking. I hope I can pull myself together soon.
I need to do some homework.
good night.