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Wow... SO I haven't been on here in a long time... Oh well, nothing is really going on with me anyways. School is about to start, I don't want it to but oh well...It weird because in the beginning of summer after like a month I was like, Man I want school to start so that I'm not bored all the time, but now I don't want it to start because I like having all this time to myself and not having to worry about studying for a test or making sure I don't have homework due... But hey only about another 2 more years, Maybe more then Ill be done! But then what? I know what I want to do, but am I going to be able to do that right out of college? am I going to make enough money to live off of it? It sucks, I want these questions answered now! lol, I guess that why I keep thinking of maybe doing something in the medical field, then I know ill have a job, and that ill make decent money, but I just cant get over my HUGE fear of needles... I swear the older and older I get the more I hate them and cant even stand to look at them, especially when they are going into a body! I don't know... I'm just confused... Should I try to do what I really love or just settle with something that is safe?
Anyways on another note... Nei tryouts are coming up in exactly a month from today.. And I really want to try out but I don't know if I should. I got cleared for the doctor to do it again, but i'm afraid that I might hurt myself, and that's like the last thing I want. But then again on the up side, it would help strengthen my shoulder a lot also! Plus My school schedule is going to be a lot this year, not like there is a lot of classes just a lot of hard stuff. Nei takes up A LOT of time and it is a huge commitment, and I just don't know if that is what I need right now. See the thing is this is my last year to really do it, after this year ill be going to a university, which is going to make my classes be all over the place, and ill have to work more and hopefully if not next year them the year after move out..Which is another big payment! So its my last year. See I just don't know what to do.. I love it sooo much and I want to do it soo bad so so bad, but I don't know if its the responsible thing to do you know...Also that would mean quite a bit less time to be with Jason, which I know he and I will not like... I don't know.. anyone have any advice?!?!
ok well I need to go let the dogs in from outside, it's hot out there.. Bye!
Anyways on another note... Nei tryouts are coming up in exactly a month from today.. And I really want to try out but I don't know if I should. I got cleared for the doctor to do it again, but i'm afraid that I might hurt myself, and that's like the last thing I want. But then again on the up side, it would help strengthen my shoulder a lot also! Plus My school schedule is going to be a lot this year, not like there is a lot of classes just a lot of hard stuff. Nei takes up A LOT of time and it is a huge commitment, and I just don't know if that is what I need right now. See the thing is this is my last year to really do it, after this year ill be going to a university, which is going to make my classes be all over the place, and ill have to work more and hopefully if not next year them the year after move out..Which is another big payment! So its my last year. See I just don't know what to do.. I love it sooo much and I want to do it soo bad so so bad, but I don't know if its the responsible thing to do you know...Also that would mean quite a bit less time to be with Jason, which I know he and I will not like... I don't know.. anyone have any advice?!?!
ok well I need to go let the dogs in from outside, it's hot out there.. Bye!