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Jesus fucking christ. One of us actually died. Still trying to swallow that lump of unhappy news. I mean sure i get when we got beat up a bit the other day, I mean vamps. They bite back, no shit. But that girl that got killed? It never occured to me that the deaths would actually happen ya know? Which is stupid when I think about it, since thats what the chosen slayers are all about. One dies, another one comes. Been happenin for centuries.
Its just, you know, since we all got chose, part of me thought we had beat that system with sprials of death. Guess not.
Everyone is taking it pretty hard. I am too, but not letting it show. Death happens, fact of life. Nothing that coulda been done about it. She choose to fight to death, she did. What could we have done? Its just damn, she was younger than me dude. What the hell was she thinking fighting like that? why didn't she run?
Plus the thought keeps occuring to me, what if I had been in her shoes? Would I have done the same thing and die? I don't like thinking about that man. Makes me sick. I don't wanna die anytime soon. Yet, at the same time, I couldn't see myself running if i was her either.
God, this is all fucked up.
Its just, you know, since we all got chose, part of me thought we had beat that system with sprials of death. Guess not.
Everyone is taking it pretty hard. I am too, but not letting it show. Death happens, fact of life. Nothing that coulda been done about it. She choose to fight to death, she did. What could we have done? Its just damn, she was younger than me dude. What the hell was she thinking fighting like that? why didn't she run?
Plus the thought keeps occuring to me, what if I had been in her shoes? Would I have done the same thing and die? I don't like thinking about that man. Makes me sick. I don't wanna die anytime soon. Yet, at the same time, I couldn't see myself running if i was her either.
God, this is all fucked up.