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A few days late, but as promised... here's an update.
I went to Columbus (Westerville, actually) on Monday and had a great time with Sean (seanypooh) (I still giggle at his LJ screen name...) Anyway, the first thing we did as soon as I got there was go to The Cheesecake Factory for dinner. He let me drive his "silver bullet", a 1998(?) Chrysler Sebring LX coupe. Mmm.. one of my favorite cars. Well, we got there and they weren't very busy so we got seated immediately which is a first. We got avacado egg rolls as an appetizer which were very tasty. For some reason we both were in the mood for fish, so Sean got the mahi-mahi and I got the salmon. Mine was great and Sean said his was too... mine came with fresh asparagus which is always great. Unfortunately, we stuffed ourselves too much to have room for cheesecake for dessert so we left and went back to his house where we played X-Box. He got me addicted to this game, Fable, and so I spontaneously decided to buy an X-Box since Sean said he would let me borrow Fable.. lol. So we went to the mall and I bought a used one at EB Games, and Project Gotham Racing II. Sean let me borrow some other games including the first Halo so I'm sure to be occupied for awhile, although I'm still currently addicted to Fable. Best RPG EVER!
I've still been somewhat pissy lately so I apologize. I guess it's because I haven't been taking my happy pills. Oh well. I'd rather deal with it than deal with the side effects of the medicine that is prescribed to me. I'm starting to figure out who my true friends are, though, and in my opinion I only have a couple. People who I considered close friends may not have mutual feelings so I'm tired of worrying about it. I guess it's not their fault. A lot of people I have never met before in person or have drifted away, and I guess that's life but it still is hard to swallow. I hardly talk to my "best friend" anymore and I think she stopped posting on here too. I can understand being busy but if I am as close of a friend as I was lead to believe then an effort should be made to keep that friendship alive on both sides and I've done more than enough on my end. This has happened with several other people, too, and I'm just tired of putting forth the effort. Years of worrying about what people think have taken their toll on me and I'm beginning to just let it go because I'm tired. Yes, I am somewhat depressed and I have been lately but I feel that my reasons are legit. I'm almost 27 years old, have an above average IQ and could probably do whatever I wanted to do if I put my mind to it, yet I lack the necessary education and work experience. I want to work in television and have wanted to since I was young but unfortunately I picked a cruel business to be interested in. You need at least a Bachelor's Degree from college and years of experience to make any decent amount of money. Most entry-level jobs in the TV industry pay less than I'm making now at the Sheraton, which I thought was a joke. In fact, I strongly feel that a person with 7 years of experience working the hours that I do should make at LEAST $25,000 a year, but I make only $8.00 an hour. There are some fast food joints that pay better than that. Unless I become a manager again, which has an overwhelming amount of duties, would I even come close to $25k a year. I only made $23,500 at the Wingate Inn when I was Front Office Manager there. It's a joke.
Anyway, back to my friends... I just want to make it clear to everyone that I want honesty. That's all I ask. I don't care if you have to tell me that I'm a fat ugly bastard (although I already know this) but all that I ask for is the truth. I don't want people to say one thing to "make me feel better" when it's not true because when I find out later it's not the truth then I feel even worse. If you talk to me just for the sake of talking to me and don't consider me a friend, then don't pretend to be. I have no problem talking to people who are acquaintences or even new people, but don't pretend to be my friend if you aren't. If I ask a question then answer it truthfully because obviously if I'm asking then there's a reason behind it. Yes, I do ask those questions that "you're not supposed to ask", but I don't care. I have no problem putting people on the spot because the person I ask a tough question to should be able to be comfortable with it if there's honesty involved. Of course things will be uncomfortable if I catch someone being dishonest.
Well, I've probably pissed off at least two people so I'm going to wrap this up now. I may rant more later depending on my mood. See ya.
I went to Columbus (Westerville, actually) on Monday and had a great time with Sean (seanypooh) (I still giggle at his LJ screen name...) Anyway, the first thing we did as soon as I got there was go to The Cheesecake Factory for dinner. He let me drive his "silver bullet", a 1998(?) Chrysler Sebring LX coupe. Mmm.. one of my favorite cars. Well, we got there and they weren't very busy so we got seated immediately which is a first. We got avacado egg rolls as an appetizer which were very tasty. For some reason we both were in the mood for fish, so Sean got the mahi-mahi and I got the salmon. Mine was great and Sean said his was too... mine came with fresh asparagus which is always great. Unfortunately, we stuffed ourselves too much to have room for cheesecake for dessert so we left and went back to his house where we played X-Box. He got me addicted to this game, Fable, and so I spontaneously decided to buy an X-Box since Sean said he would let me borrow Fable.. lol. So we went to the mall and I bought a used one at EB Games, and Project Gotham Racing II. Sean let me borrow some other games including the first Halo so I'm sure to be occupied for awhile, although I'm still currently addicted to Fable. Best RPG EVER!
I've still been somewhat pissy lately so I apologize. I guess it's because I haven't been taking my happy pills. Oh well. I'd rather deal with it than deal with the side effects of the medicine that is prescribed to me. I'm starting to figure out who my true friends are, though, and in my opinion I only have a couple. People who I considered close friends may not have mutual feelings so I'm tired of worrying about it. I guess it's not their fault. A lot of people I have never met before in person or have drifted away, and I guess that's life but it still is hard to swallow. I hardly talk to my "best friend" anymore and I think she stopped posting on here too. I can understand being busy but if I am as close of a friend as I was lead to believe then an effort should be made to keep that friendship alive on both sides and I've done more than enough on my end. This has happened with several other people, too, and I'm just tired of putting forth the effort. Years of worrying about what people think have taken their toll on me and I'm beginning to just let it go because I'm tired. Yes, I am somewhat depressed and I have been lately but I feel that my reasons are legit. I'm almost 27 years old, have an above average IQ and could probably do whatever I wanted to do if I put my mind to it, yet I lack the necessary education and work experience. I want to work in television and have wanted to since I was young but unfortunately I picked a cruel business to be interested in. You need at least a Bachelor's Degree from college and years of experience to make any decent amount of money. Most entry-level jobs in the TV industry pay less than I'm making now at the Sheraton, which I thought was a joke. In fact, I strongly feel that a person with 7 years of experience working the hours that I do should make at LEAST $25,000 a year, but I make only $8.00 an hour. There are some fast food joints that pay better than that. Unless I become a manager again, which has an overwhelming amount of duties, would I even come close to $25k a year. I only made $23,500 at the Wingate Inn when I was Front Office Manager there. It's a joke.
Anyway, back to my friends... I just want to make it clear to everyone that I want honesty. That's all I ask. I don't care if you have to tell me that I'm a fat ugly bastard (although I already know this) but all that I ask for is the truth. I don't want people to say one thing to "make me feel better" when it's not true because when I find out later it's not the truth then I feel even worse. If you talk to me just for the sake of talking to me and don't consider me a friend, then don't pretend to be. I have no problem talking to people who are acquaintences or even new people, but don't pretend to be my friend if you aren't. If I ask a question then answer it truthfully because obviously if I'm asking then there's a reason behind it. Yes, I do ask those questions that "you're not supposed to ask", but I don't care. I have no problem putting people on the spot because the person I ask a tough question to should be able to be comfortable with it if there's honesty involved. Of course things will be uncomfortable if I catch someone being dishonest.
Well, I've probably pissed off at least two people so I'm going to wrap this up now. I may rant more later depending on my mood. See ya.