Boredom sets in....
For the first time in like 2 1/2 weeks it's safe to say i'm bored and I got nothing to do (well I have hwk..but that don't count)...well Justin called to see if I wanted to go to casino with everyone but I got work 2morrow so coming home at 2am won't help the 6ish wake up...I learned that from yesterday...so now here I am sitting bored with nothing to do....so I hafta resort to updating my lj...
So what's new? nothing...work, school, gym, kickboxing and going out....I could do without the first 2...I really hate school and it's depressing to think i'm going nowhere really fast and how many more yrs I have left....I mean when I look at it this exercise science thing is a foolish dream...and if this fails I have nothing to fall back on...and right now from where I stand it's not looking good for me at all....I wish I figured that this is what I wanted 4 yrs ago...it would have saved me alot of trouble...right now I miserable becuz I have no direction and parents don't really understand the concept of studying something u enjoy instead of what guarantees a job....but what can I do...nothing......and well work is just horrible there's no motivation to go in....only thing remotely driving me is the money....I need it too badly....who ever said money doesn't buy u happiness prolly didn't have ne money......cuz from where I stand money is no.2 right below friends/family.......sure I don't need to be filthy rich...but money gets me clothes, food, gas in my car, drinks, movies, more food, gym membership, kickboxing lessons....no money = no fun....yup that's the capitalist inside me talking.....it's shame I've been corrupted by the shallow vain society we live in.....oh well I don't think i'd fit in ne other way of thinking...bah...ne ways the point being is I hate my job...but I love the money...so why don't I find another better job?....simple reason...the hours are just to flexible here....I show up when and what time I want and I don't really get in trouble...that's pretty sweet....but also doesn't help on days that I really don't wanna work (which happens often).....ok so where was I going with this...oh I actually had no point....just nonsense rambling....that's how bored I am.....
This may sound crazy....but i've actually sorta enjoyed this gloomy weather.....I haven't been feeling upbeat and I didn't feel like cheering up for some reason...so weather helped that out....I hate being all blah when it's sunny outside...it's not right......don't get me wrong I want the weather to get better and fast...cuz if it's gonna be like this all summer...i'm gonna be pissed.....but these past few days I didn't mind it so much.......
So do I have ne thing interesting to add?....that's a negative...I think i'm all outta rambling...well not really but I'm getting sleepy (it's only 10:12...I guess going to the gym and kickboxing in one day really takes it out of me)....so i'll end this useless update now...
So what's new? nothing...work, school, gym, kickboxing and going out....I could do without the first 2...I really hate school and it's depressing to think i'm going nowhere really fast and how many more yrs I have left....I mean when I look at it this exercise science thing is a foolish dream...and if this fails I have nothing to fall back on...and right now from where I stand it's not looking good for me at all....I wish I figured that this is what I wanted 4 yrs ago...it would have saved me alot of trouble...right now I miserable becuz I have no direction and parents don't really understand the concept of studying something u enjoy instead of what guarantees a job....but what can I do...nothing......and well work is just horrible there's no motivation to go in....only thing remotely driving me is the money....I need it too badly....who ever said money doesn't buy u happiness prolly didn't have ne money......cuz from where I stand money is no.2 right below friends/family.......sure I don't need to be filthy rich...but money gets me clothes, food, gas in my car, drinks, movies, more food, gym membership, kickboxing lessons....no money = no fun....yup that's the capitalist inside me talking.....it's shame I've been corrupted by the shallow vain society we live in.....oh well I don't think i'd fit in ne other way of thinking...bah...ne ways the point being is I hate my job...but I love the money...so why don't I find another better job?....simple reason...the hours are just to flexible here....I show up when and what time I want and I don't really get in trouble...that's pretty sweet....but also doesn't help on days that I really don't wanna work (which happens often).....ok so where was I going with this...oh I actually had no point....just nonsense rambling....that's how bored I am.....
This may sound crazy....but i've actually sorta enjoyed this gloomy weather.....I haven't been feeling upbeat and I didn't feel like cheering up for some reason...so weather helped that out....I hate being all blah when it's sunny outside...it's not right......don't get me wrong I want the weather to get better and fast...cuz if it's gonna be like this all summer...i'm gonna be pissed.....but these past few days I didn't mind it so much.......
So do I have ne thing interesting to add?....that's a negative...I think i'm all outta rambling...well not really but I'm getting sleepy (it's only 10:12...I guess going to the gym and kickboxing in one day really takes it out of me)....so i'll end this useless update now...