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[cssnova]

So it's like 2:30 in the morning. I'm not drunk...but I'm not sober either. I just drove home 1 block from my house. I know I shouldn't have becvause even a block is a lot when you are under the influence....but in my case...being a girl...I thought it was better then walking home and possibly getting ireaped in his hick town. I went over to a friends house tonight. I can tell it's a "just friends" relationship. Goddamn...I just don't understnad...why doesn't any boy like me for who I am? I am so picky, and it's not like I'm going to fall for just any boy....but it seems like the ones I fall for never return my liking. I just don't understand why nobody finds me attractive inside and out. I think I"m aa good person???? I don't think I"m ass ugly...All I want is that boy who finds me special...just for being silly 'old ditsy me...but instead I'm stuck with another lonely night....I'm so sick of sleeping alone....I want my cuddle buddy...I guess Roscoe will have to do for now....

I wish I wasn't always so lonely....

at nights it's always worse

everybody has that someone that they are able to share their nights with...

I sleep alone in an empty house...

maybe that's why I hate Winona so much...

I always feel so alone....

so independent...

like I have nobody to rely on....

nobody who can be there for me and only me at any given time in the day...

where are you....I miss you...I need you...I've always longed for you....All I want is to feel loved...

Well now that I've felt sorry formyself ...I'm going to go to bed and wake up feeling refreshed I hope....NIghty Nighty Winona...and fuck you..you knwo who you are...you're not a single person...just an idea....