She has no idea about what I think
Lately, I can't stop thinking about her. I have yet to see a flaw in her. She is clean: not a drinker, not a smoker, doesn't whore herself out, tries not to lie, and is a great person. For almost four years, I have longed to hold her, to be the one who makes her happy, to be the reason she smiles everyday. When I heard her reaction to me joining the service, I seriously considered not joining. I would do anything and everything to make her happy. Whenever we get the opportunity, we play games online with each other. I had a pretty consistent habit of picking on her until recently. I don't know why I stopped; I think it was just to see if I could. I haven't picked at her for two weeks, but I don't think she has noticed. After watching her in a relationship with another guy for three painful years, my hopes rose when they had problems and broke up. I saw that she recently changed her status on Facebook to 'in a relationship.' I don't know anything about it and didn't even know she was talking to someone. I saw her tonight while I was at work, and she looked at me, but it was very brief, almost as if she was guilty of something. I don't know how she feels about me and I am almost scared to find out. Guess the best thing for me to do is to wait it out and see where I end up. For the lucky ones on my myspace or Facebook friends list, this is the she that I speak of. I could only hope that one day she will be in my arms.