May 01, 2002 19:07
I feel like such a tool. I'm actually getting into the whole prom thing after swearing I wouldn't for the last 4 years. I'm not sure why I care, but apparently, I do.
I'm gonna go with Lauren. I'm really happy about that because I wanted to date her in the past and it didn't work out as I had hoped, but now it's all good. We need to make all of our plans for the prom... tux, limo, afterparties, etc. I'll probably go get fitted for a tux tomorrow, and my friend John said he had an extra limo we could use. As for the afterparties, Lauren doesn't want to go to/have one because she's a "good girl". She really is sweet and everything; she is very cool about it too. I just kind of feel like I'm a little to "advanced" for her. I'm in to the drug scene and the drinking, she's never touched the stuff.
I respect her for not wanting to do any of the stuff, but sometimes I get the feeling like she does, but is scared of it. I am cool with her wanting to stay straight and all, but I would love to party with her. It would be really great to bring her to an afterparty, she would truly make my evening that much better, but I am not sure if she will be comfortable. I'm pretty sure she'll be happy at a party, but I am doubtful of her level of comfort. I think she may be a bit uneasy with everyone around her getting drunk off their asses and stoned to the bejesus.
I am going to gently try and persuade her to party with us, but I am uncertain of the outcome, and I am uncertain of how clean my conscience will be trying to persuade her to such things. I really do care for her, so I would hate to hurt her feelings in any way.
I'll figure it out hopefully.