oh, sweet mental exhaustion
It's interesting how just one little thing can set so many things in motion. I have found my motivation. Yes, it's cheesy and arrogant making up my own quote to live by, but the realisation came this morning. Blast from the past made me sit and re-evaluate myself. What have I done or achieved? What were my childhood dreams? How will I be just as happy ten, twenty, thirty years from now? Will my values ever change? Have I or am I doing anything that would put it in effect, no matter how small and insinificant it may be now?
I'm confused. Age really is just a number, and I feel I do not deserve to have lived this long in life if this is all I have to show for it. What is my worth? I've become much too arrogant over the years. Arrogance or naivete. Confidence and intelligence? It's all a charade and begets nothing.
So now, I am putting a stop to this. I need to stop saying no to almost everything.
"At the end of each day I will be saying 'I tried' instead of 'I didn't'."
And I will keep trying until I get to the top of whatever it is I set myself out to do. I'm tired of making excuses for myself, of being much too complacent once I get just one little toe in the doorway. I can do this.
Whoever said resolutions are only made for the New Year?
I'm confused. Age really is just a number, and I feel I do not deserve to have lived this long in life if this is all I have to show for it. What is my worth? I've become much too arrogant over the years. Arrogance or naivete. Confidence and intelligence? It's all a charade and begets nothing.
So now, I am putting a stop to this. I need to stop saying no to almost everything.
"At the end of each day I will be saying 'I tried' instead of 'I didn't'."
And I will keep trying until I get to the top of whatever it is I set myself out to do. I'm tired of making excuses for myself, of being much too complacent once I get just one little toe in the doorway. I can do this.
Whoever said resolutions are only made for the New Year?