Wow 18 weeks
Interesting how things can change in a few months.
A lot of events that made me think about what's really going on and how I want to be apart of it.
There is so much out there to understand just to get a step ahead of the game.
I've realized that it is a nice thing to be able to be content where you are at, but also the necessity of being ready for change, when it comes, is just as important.
That second part is what I'm working on. It's real easy to stay where I am, but I'm working on making some changes happen.
wow so vague... I just read what i wrote.. oivey.
okay, so I am really shitty with finances, I barely have much money as it is, but I'm still not great with it. I have not a dime saved, and can't seem to get myself to do so, there's always another cost, another bill, another something that brings me up near short.. it's such a struggle.
Kelly and I are no longer together. The last time I saw her was about 5 minutes before she broke up with me.. it was a stupid fight, but there was more there then just the fight...
I don't think I'm going to see her again any time soon, and I have to accept it and move on. There were a lot of things wrong in our relationship. I have a tendency to put the whole blame on myself for most of what happens. But looking back (and talking to some good friends) there wasn't a whole lot I could have done. I can't make someone become more understanding or accepting of others. I can't make someone change their priorities around...
As I said, I just have to get on with it. I don't think I'm going to be 100% any time soon, but I do know that I'm going to move on anyways. I keep having that number floating up to my mind five and a half years. I've only lived in a place that long till I was eleven.
There's some stuff going on with family and the likes, my sister seems to be doing okay, her kids as well, I have one brother out of jail, and claims he's not going to be drinking anymore. I have another still in jail for violation of probation. Basically both brothers are alcoholics and have not recovered since my mother passed. I don't think any of us has really.
I don't think you can ever really let someone you love truly go. They are always going to be there whether you want them to be or not.
All of the other mundane things are still there, sort of.
I still work for the same company, living in riverside commuting. Have similar friends. Basically stopped playing magic and wow for the most part.
I just spend my time reading and working out trying to get back into the shape I was before I let myself go.
Anyways, I'll try to post something more positive next time.
A lot of events that made me think about what's really going on and how I want to be apart of it.
There is so much out there to understand just to get a step ahead of the game.
I've realized that it is a nice thing to be able to be content where you are at, but also the necessity of being ready for change, when it comes, is just as important.
That second part is what I'm working on. It's real easy to stay where I am, but I'm working on making some changes happen.
wow so vague... I just read what i wrote.. oivey.
okay, so I am really shitty with finances, I barely have much money as it is, but I'm still not great with it. I have not a dime saved, and can't seem to get myself to do so, there's always another cost, another bill, another something that brings me up near short.. it's such a struggle.
Kelly and I are no longer together. The last time I saw her was about 5 minutes before she broke up with me.. it was a stupid fight, but there was more there then just the fight...
I don't think I'm going to see her again any time soon, and I have to accept it and move on. There were a lot of things wrong in our relationship. I have a tendency to put the whole blame on myself for most of what happens. But looking back (and talking to some good friends) there wasn't a whole lot I could have done. I can't make someone become more understanding or accepting of others. I can't make someone change their priorities around...
As I said, I just have to get on with it. I don't think I'm going to be 100% any time soon, but I do know that I'm going to move on anyways. I keep having that number floating up to my mind five and a half years. I've only lived in a place that long till I was eleven.
There's some stuff going on with family and the likes, my sister seems to be doing okay, her kids as well, I have one brother out of jail, and claims he's not going to be drinking anymore. I have another still in jail for violation of probation. Basically both brothers are alcoholics and have not recovered since my mother passed. I don't think any of us has really.
I don't think you can ever really let someone you love truly go. They are always going to be there whether you want them to be or not.
All of the other mundane things are still there, sort of.
I still work for the same company, living in riverside commuting. Have similar friends. Basically stopped playing magic and wow for the most part.
I just spend my time reading and working out trying to get back into the shape I was before I let myself go.
Anyways, I'll try to post something more positive next time.