Some days ...
You know those days that you sometimes have in which you have absolutely no free time because you are doing this and that yet you have nothing to show for it in the end? Well, that's today for me. I woke up at around 10 am, and I ended up talking online until 2:45. I know, I know. I made my bed for feeling unaccomplished, but I still had a lot of day left. So, I realized at 2:45 that I was late to pick up my little brother. He officially gets out of school at 3, but they usually let him out 5 minutes early. Now, on average it takes me about 20 minutes to get there. So, already I was far behind schedule. I got his soccer stuff, jumped in the car and fuckin' booked it across town. I ended up making it there in 13 minutes (tied for my best time yet and it was only because I got stuck behind some idiots). He had soccer at 4 so we went and got food, came back, and I waited for his practice to end at 5. Then we came back home, and I had a hair appointment at 6 that ended up lasting until around 8. At 8:15 John and I went through the building I am helping to repair to make note of any additional inaccuracies in my drawings. We got through half of the building at that got us to 9:15. And here I am now, and I only have 1 hour worth of true accomplishment on the day.
I don't know why days like this bother me but the days where I sit on my ass all day don't. It really boggles the mind. Oh well. I suppose when we do work we like to feel like we have something to show for it. Blah.
So, in a little over 2 days I will be back in Pittsburgh again, and I don't know if I am excited or not. I feel like I have so much to get done in the next day and a half, and I really don't want to go until I accomplish everything for which I have set myself up. I have quite a long list for myself, and I should be able to make a lot of progress if I wake up at 9, make it into the office by 10, and use 4 hours to get some quality work done. I may actually have longer than that as my mom is going with John to the hospital tomorrow to get his cyst removed from behind his ear. That thing is freaky as hell. I feel like it is from some scene out of alien.
All in all, I don't think I should be disappointed with today's accomplishments (or lack thereof). Though I don't have much to show for it, I set myself up for getting some quality work done tomorrow because of the mere hour I put in on my project today.
In other news, I am actually finally getting up off my ass to do things. This is a very new phenomenon for me as this illness has kept me down a bit. Even though I mentally felt much better awhile ago it took much longer to get up the motivation to actually do something with my day rather than lie on my bed with my face buried in my computer doing pretty much next to nothing I can remember. It is definitely nice to know that this time spent in Cincinnati (aka this time of complete loneliness) hasn't been an entire waste. I finally feeling like I may actually be ready to go back to class come fall. Time will tell, but I am really hoping as I have come so far and only have a bit farther to go.