[Private Entry]
Last night was... Interesting to say the least. I still can't believe Lois and Clark are, whatever the hell they are. I feel like I walked in on a completely different dimension.
The one question I really can't seem to answer is why are they lying to me? Do they really think I'm still in love with Clark? Because that'd be stupid of them. Seriously.
I'd just like to know what kind of relationship they have so I'd know how to deal with this. If they're just fucking, although that doesn't sound like Clark at all, I could tell Lois I know; But considering they've been hiding it for months now, I don't believe it's just sex... So if there are feelings involved, I really can't force them to tell me anything, especially Lois. I don't think she's ever had strong feelings for someone before.
It's just weird to think that someone could be Clark, but whatever suits her, I guess.
I wish Lex would tell me more. I understand his loyalty to Clark though, so I can't really push it; That and the fact that although Lex was extremely polite and nice to me, I think his mind was far away, busy with something a lot more important than his best friend's sex life and my inane babbling.
But that's the thing about Lex, you can never really tell what's going on in his head and that can make him intriguing but lately, it makes me feel like I'm annoying him. I hope he is at least still opening up to Clark.
Anyway, dinner with Lex was nice and he was almost as relaxed as he was when we were talking at the club, I really like this version of him, but the atmosphere completely changed when I got home. It was so weird being uncomfortable around Lois, it has never happened before and dammit, I wish she'd just tell me. I turned down a chance to watch Sark with her because I couldn't trust myself to not blurt something out.
She needs to tell me, not the other way around.
Unless of course, Clark lets something slip. He has always been good at keeping his secrets though, so that's unlikely. I haven't seen him yet but he should come to the Tribune soon, we'll see how that goes.
My brain is going miles per second, I should use this energy on the article rather than this pointless entry that no one will read anyway.
The one question I really can't seem to answer is why are they lying to me? Do they really think I'm still in love with Clark? Because that'd be stupid of them. Seriously.
I'd just like to know what kind of relationship they have so I'd know how to deal with this. If they're just fucking, although that doesn't sound like Clark at all, I could tell Lois I know; But considering they've been hiding it for months now, I don't believe it's just sex... So if there are feelings involved, I really can't force them to tell me anything, especially Lois. I don't think she's ever had strong feelings for someone before.
It's just weird to think that someone could be Clark, but whatever suits her, I guess.
I wish Lex would tell me more. I understand his loyalty to Clark though, so I can't really push it; That and the fact that although Lex was extremely polite and nice to me, I think his mind was far away, busy with something a lot more important than his best friend's sex life and my inane babbling.
But that's the thing about Lex, you can never really tell what's going on in his head and that can make him intriguing but lately, it makes me feel like I'm annoying him. I hope he is at least still opening up to Clark.
Anyway, dinner with Lex was nice and he was almost as relaxed as he was when we were talking at the club, I really like this version of him, but the atmosphere completely changed when I got home. It was so weird being uncomfortable around Lois, it has never happened before and dammit, I wish she'd just tell me. I turned down a chance to watch Sark with her because I couldn't trust myself to not blurt something out.
She needs to tell me, not the other way around.
Unless of course, Clark lets something slip. He has always been good at keeping his secrets though, so that's unlikely. I haven't seen him yet but he should come to the Tribune soon, we'll see how that goes.
My brain is going miles per second, I should use this energy on the article rather than this pointless entry that no one will read anyway.