fxck.

[cs_lover]

ok so. life is out to screw me over.
got in a little fight with sum1 that i love today cuz i was already heated n i took it outta line.
i was mad the my camera got thrown over the table n crashed onto the floor. i was really mad. but it was an accident && i totally understand that. i was just upset over alll the other things that happened today && other stuff.
if i cooda jus had 2 more sec. it wooda been ok.
but now she might be mad @ me.
n im hoping 2morrow she wont b. but who knows.
soo ya. nothing else really.

i really miss charlie. like i REALLY do.
&& i wish i cood talk to Bolden n see him.
but u kno i soo doubt that.

i wish everything cood just be ok for once.
just one day were nothing went wrong.
i wish i cood see him && know that everythings fine.
i just want to understand it all.
to get through it all && know its all fixed.
to know why this has to happen.
why something good always turns into something bad.
to kno whats really going on &&
not want/have to believe what i hear.
to finally feel good about something
&& not worry any longer.