it's been awhile
I haven't been on livejournal in so long. I just started college last week, and so far i don't really have an opinon on it. Sometimes it alright, most of the time i don't want to go though. It isn't the same as high school, even if it's hvcc. Sure, i see kids from my school, they aren't my close friends. Most of my friends are seniors this year, idk. This summer i kind of isolated myself. I saw chris a lot...spent practically the whole summer in his tiny room. Sure i hung out with lindsey and john, people from work, my sister...and so on. Chris is like my best friend. I can tell him everything...even when i know he's gonna be pissed. Speaking of best friends, i don't even talk to mike anymore. He fucking moved out and lives in a fucking tent, i just feel bad for his mom. She has no one now. Anyway, the whole college shit, im an outcast in my classes. For every eight guys there is one girl...i think maybe around four girls in all of my classes except comp. I don't really fit in, i don't sit at home and play WoW, i don't do the hw the second i get home, and i don't give a fuck about shit music. I don't care. I'm not use to people like that, and they kind of scare me. They're smarter than me, i know it, and i know if im going to catch up i have to put in tons of work, i just don't have time. I work roughly 30 hours a week now with 3 full days of fucking class, it's exhausting. I really just miss summer. I'm just really sick of this whole collge shit, it isn't like im taking art as a major. I mean yeah art can be hard and you have to get everything looking how you planned, but you can also change shit. Fucking my major programming logic, data communications, fund of info processing, i don't understand half of it, and if one thing doesn't make sense nothing else will that involves it. I wish i could fucking draw and paint all day, even if i know i suck ass at it. I want to scribble on paper and say it's a person. But its almost ten and if i'm ever going to get up at six, i need to sleep. One good thing out of college though...Utah ski trip<3