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Don't get frustrated, it's not the way to handle things. Don't get lonely, even though you can't help it. Don't fill your emptiness with meaningless objects.
And even with all that said... I'm happy. Life is good, fulfilling, stressful, and perhaps a little lonesome... all in all... normal.
Apparently I have forgotten what it's like to have "different" relationships with other males. Oh so used to the extremely different relationship that exists between R & J, and used to the normal (friend) relationships that I've had with all those other awesome boys... In between the two is a really weird place, I don't know how to act, more than that... I don't want to act... I want things to be so natural that nothing is pretend or extreme contemplation.
Exciting = Dancing tomorrow, Jared is coming to visit Saturday, Six Flags with the family and Richard on Sunday.
Not so exciting = the dentist.
I want to be one of the cool kids outside on the grass right now, but instead I'm going to go study Chemistry and Political Science.
And even with all that said... I'm happy. Life is good, fulfilling, stressful, and perhaps a little lonesome... all in all... normal.
Apparently I have forgotten what it's like to have "different" relationships with other males. Oh so used to the extremely different relationship that exists between R & J, and used to the normal (friend) relationships that I've had with all those other awesome boys... In between the two is a really weird place, I don't know how to act, more than that... I don't want to act... I want things to be so natural that nothing is pretend or extreme contemplation.
Exciting = Dancing tomorrow, Jared is coming to visit Saturday, Six Flags with the family and Richard on Sunday.
Not so exciting = the dentist.
I want to be one of the cool kids outside on the grass right now, but instead I'm going to go study Chemistry and Political Science.